Darling .

2010-05-16T13:26:00.003+08:00

Hey yo! Guys blog dead. Don ask why. Don text mii and call mii to update because! I WON"T FARKING UPDATE MY BLOG! I'm too lazy la. Sorry... Hahas. Alot of tings happen again. And i shan't elaborate. Let's say about the recent activity. Exams. Well. That all about exam. The next subject is... I'm fat. And i really tink i am. Well. LeQi came to my house and we visited these few freak profile. Facebook profile i mean. Text mii and Ask mii the link. I don wanna be a baddie. HAHAS! And i realise LeQi. Love to groan? Or... i donno make some weird sound. When she laugh. Do observe. HAHAS! It's someting like... UHMMMMEEE. Damn hollow one. HAHAS! BYE! :] Some... ppl. Look at mii as though i'm a bitch. Well. I'm very... Disturb by that. It's okay. I don care how ya guys look at mii. I will not explain. Cause i don own ya a living. And... Just a lil advice. Make sure ya know watt's happening before ya conclude. And passing remarks about mii spearding rumours to every living tings on earth. I SAW YA TELLING LIES TO A PLANT! YA DON EVEN KNOW! Ahem... Because not everybody is as forgiving as i am :]

PS: I'm still smiling. This prove mii right :] AND YA WRONG :]

2010-04-07T18:47:00.003+08:00

Well. Haven been updating my blog And i suppose it should be dead now. I miss the times with ya guys and... When i saw those blog i realise. We were't so close anymore uhh. Felt like crying now. BUT I WON'T. If ya know. How man i am. I really miss those time. I don farking wanna move on. I tink i'm going crazy. My heart donwan to move on my brain don. I can't. MOVE ON. Cynthia said. There'll be alot of passer-by in ya life. Some don even leave footsteps in ya life. True. I can see everybody movED on. I can cope wit my life. Yeah. Although i said I don mind. But had ya ever tot how much. VIVIAN TOH ACTUALLY MIND?

It was ya birthday. I was not even invited. I was smiling but inside mii i'm bleeding.

One by one. Wanna impact my life. Trying to tell mii ya care but when i need ya most. But Ya were not there. When ya need mii. I'll always. I promise. Always welcome ya wit open arms. I just hope. Ya won't leave mii like everyone did. If ya do so... I don mind. Anyway.

I'm tinking if today is the 6th. Last night is my mum birthday we went to international hotel at the cost of 103 which is damn costly. And. I forgotten to bring my phone. This morning. I'm still tinkin if it's the 6th. Den i decide i should study for the test. TMR [7th] Of cause ima a idiot. The 7th is today. Anyway i failed my test. I ate subway just now i drop my food bit by bit. And i believe i onii consume half. This V gal was telling mii how superb i am to kill all the guys in his class. Chatting wit friends at MSN. Fanning my armpit the same time. I'm laughing at my own joke again. Hahas. Den this V gal was telling mii all the guys took my photo as avatar. And took joseph photo as avatar. LOLS! why donwan put their own fcae? Like kinda weird right? Hahs. Now she's saying sometime dat i goes... HELL NO! YA GUYS ARE SO WRONG MAN. YA GOT THE WRONG IDEA! Hahas. Guess watt she said? LOLS! Anyway i'm going to bathe now.

LOST IS NOT THE SADDEST PART. LOSING IS.

Just tot of it am i smart?

2010-03-27T18:35:00.003+08:00

Yo! Life sucks. She rock.

See watt cynthia wrote and save in my lappy?

Hi xiao Vivian

I like ur lappy

So dame cute and cute and cute lor

So cute

Haha

Anyway u r just right behind me doing ur fnn project, and I miss you

Hahas u sure think I very lame right

Ya I think so too cos I very bored and really nth to do

Sian

Why come to sch so sian

Like everyday come to sch for the seek of coming to sch only

No motivation in life man

Like do everything also meaningless

I always ask myself whats my motivation and sadly I couldn’t find any

Mrs eswren that time told us that we come to sch for a reson and one day we will find out what we want and our goal

One day we will find the reason, when I can find the reason?

Hi hi hi

Im very lame right

I kne

Hahas

Hope u will see this stupid letter I wrote to you

And ps..

You r behind me talking on the phone, hahahaha

I really nth to do lei,sian

Still got one hour to dismissal. And I can go home slp already. Hikkhj

NO LIFE RIGHT? BYE!

2010-03-24T21:12:00.003+08:00

Serious. Why do ya hate mii so much? I did't seek for the attention. Ya gave mii. I was't intend to accept. Ya made mii take it. Why? Why had ya been so inconsiderate. Some tings are better left unsaid. Do ya claim dat ya're educated? Being in the same class wit ya. Is a disgrace. Say it infront of mii okay? I donno who ya are... But let us settle this once and for all. Being a coward does't help. If ya really wanna voice out. Say it out loud. I DARE YA. Create a fake account do so much stuff... Does it even help? No right? Say it and i'll take ya on. I'LL TAKE YA ON.

I ask ya Why?

Will ya ask mii Why not?

I'll tell ya Because there isn't a reason for ya to do so.

Will ya tell mii is there a reason for everyting?

I'll say Yes. Bitch.

If ya say No. Ya don tink so.

I'll answer ya because Vivian is vivian.

Ya're not mii. Bitch.

2010-03-17T21:21:00.003+08:00

Facebook got a few of my pictures still waiting for tags. I wanna say. MY LIFE SUCKS! Hahas. Ya know why? Because i simply can push all my misfortune to my life. Everyting dat goes wrong. Thanks to it man. Tmr shall be another camp. A short one. I hope i'm excited. I gonna bring bars and bars of chocolate to ensure my sugar rush non-stop. When ya're so depressed. Ya can no longer remember watt happen. Try rewinding now... I don rememeber anyting. Somehow like it had been blocked. But i know i'm feeling lost. At least the camp will keep mii occupied:] I hate to be alone at home. I tends to hate being in a crowd. Sometimes this onii shows how lonely i am. I'm so naive to believe life. I'm destine to have a hard life uhh? Life told mii i still have someone who will stay beside mii when i need one. Now? Stars stars. Make mii smiles. Rain rain. Never go away. Can't see. I can't see. I can't see watt's happening. Don't wanna see. I don wanna see anyting. I'm even more afraid to face. I'm still waiting for the shine. The shine after the rain. The smiles i use to be proud of. Someting i wanna see. The Rainbows. I gonna tie the Rainbows in my heart. Never lose it.

2010-03-14T23:18:00.002+08:00

I love HANOI.

Went to escape today.

Thanks to Ben i had a lot of fun.

Thanks to Xuejing i had a lot of laughter

Thanks to Valentino i had a moment of solemnness

Not gonna be a wordy post.

I will feel helpless.

I will cry.

This does't mean dat i'm having depression.

I will complain.

I will ask.

This show dat Vivian actually give a damn.

I'm so glad. In actual fact school. SUCKS TO CORE.

PPL YA KNOW WATT I MEAN :]

Ppl simply walk out of my life. One by one.

I wish dat there are onii entrance in my life and no exits.

I donno where's my destination. I donno watt's my plan. BUT I'M ON MY WAY.

Ppl said it's not necessary to understand the situation to win the argument.

But to mii i have to understand the reason behind to win the argument.

I want my life to be easy! The onii solution is. To trust everybody or to doubt everybody.

Kinda impossible.

2010-03-04T16:43:00.003+08:00

My birthday. Damn cool! Just like last year. I gonna sing a birthday song for myself.

Okay i sang already. Lazy type la. Hahas.

I was feeling so mighty like i'm standing on top of the mountain! The canteen was full of wishes ya know i damn touched. Serious. I just need nothing more den wishes. Serious. I gonna thanks Everybody for the wish. Thanks those bitches who draw my hand gave mii a rolex watch. And a necklace . And ring. Damn cool! Hahas. Whoo. Surprise! MY BOYFRIEND! COME!

Okay i'm here to continue my post. ben came to accompany mii. Hahas. Happy right. After he left. I drink my bubble tea. FARK! Ya know i Farking suay. I chew on a cockroach. FARK! i JITAO CHIONG TIOLET VOMIT ALL MY SHIT OUT! DAMN! I CAN"T BELIEVE SUCH TING COULD HAPPEN TO MII! DAMN! Happy belated birthday! Damn the insect. Damn the shop. Damn. It. BYTHEWAY. THANKS KAVI AND JOEL FOR THE PLUSH :] KAVI BROUGHT THE TINGY I HATE MOST. SOMEMORE BLUE COLOUR! DAMN! BUT THANKS SERIOUSLY. DEN JOEL GAVE MII TIGER. LIKE THIS YEAR TIGER YEAR GIVE MII TIGER RIGHT? BUT STILL THANKS. HAHAS! I RECIEVE CHOCOLATE. AND WISHES WILL ALL BE REMEMEBERED. LOVE MY BIRTHDAY. HATE TODAY.

2010-03-02T18:02:00.003+08:00

Oh yah tmr is watt date? okay shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I gonna give myself a surprise :] Okay anyway. I wanna say. I love Leqi for the cake man. Although it a small one compared to oscar and mingwei. BUT! She say she gonna make mii another one anothey day. GOSH! I decide to make cookies for everybody again. Lovely right? Sweet right? Hahas. Happy right? I jump until like i just strike lottery because it's just so cool! Hahas. Tmr i expect nothing :[ Anyway it's just a birthday i should't get too upset :] Hahas. Erm today math. Teacher say one time den i understand le. My study spirit is back... I'm so happy :] Damn it. But i stop being hyper for maybe... Maybe... MAYBE an hour? Ramahdan was scolding mii. I hope i just won't get a hard time tmr. I don wanna get bash up. Kanna gang. al kinda shit. I just wanna... a birthday song. Loud loud one... Den everybody clap! Whoo! Den i give out huggies :] Tell my friends how much i love them and take alot alot of photo. Wait...! I'll leave some fun on saturday :] steamboat de. Hee hee. By the way. I've got this lame conversation to share.

V: Hey ya know tmr is watt day ma?

P: Watt day?

V: Huh? Donno meh? Okay lo. nvm la:]

P: Bye bye.

Ya tink is the end? NO WAY!

This person is so "AWESOME" We never gonna end in this way.

We'll end in a interesting way.

After 10 minutes.

P: I know la. Ya birthday.

V: Wah ya really know leh! Wish mii wish mii! A HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Gosh love ya man!

P: Okay. Happy birthday.

V: Erm. Alright thanks. Bye.

P: Wait. If tomorrow is ya birthday. Den today leh?

V:... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...

It should be the day before my birthday i tink.

Am i right?

WHY DID I EVER CONTINUE THIS CONVERSATION? GOSH!

PS:

Remember the term "Forever"

We swear we'll die together

Now we're like strangers.

And brothers was like never

I took a step back.

Even when ya stab mii at my back.

But ya attitude was like heck.

So i deleted ya contact.

How i wish those time could be back.

2010-02-26T21:32:00.002+08:00

Hahas. Erm. It had been some time sincei updated this blog. Ohh. My birthday coming lo :] Hee hee. Gonna have a few gathering alrights :] Hee. And and and and. Tell ya guys this ting. Vivian toh is such a loser. She failed her math. And suddenly her perfect life in heaven turn out to be a damn hell life in the underworld. Because she have got. F9. Ya laugh. The last year. Tyco top scholar now become the failure. Hahas. So i apologise for not going to th steamboat. Partly because of my result. And my SMS. Uhh. Today life science club... Kanna bash up by jia poo. Lols. JK. He 'Accidentaly' too many time which looks more to a 'Purposely' uhh. Den we met this guy in the bus. Lame. = . = " Don wanna elaborate. Loser. Is all i could devote to him. Hahas. The pot calling the kettle black. LOLS. Mirror is seriously watt ya need. Eat lesser and be kind to yaself. When ya're on diet. Use some of the money ya save. To buy a mirror :] Moreover. Get a life! Ya. When face to face. Ya Perform so cowardly. Acting like ya're sme innocent kid. Ohh ohh. Don't be hiding behind dat piece glass and show all ya fingers. Loser :]

PS: Welcome to the earth. If ya donno the rules. It's fine. For ya information. Nobody would survive. calling ya name isn't a crime. Tons of ppl wit the same name. On earth. And if ya scold the guy who called ya name farker la. Bangla. Suck la. Family die la. Ya'll be damn tired. :] This is life ya just have to accept. How ya name is being called by strangers. :]

2010-02-22T20:22:00.002+08:00

Hahas.

Today comman test.

Whoo!

Same same lo.

No life.

Eee.

Gonna post some other day.

Bitch.

2010-02-19T18:56:00.002+08:00

Hahas. Today was so high = . = " LOLS. Laugh like mad. Ate two stick of candy bar today. Cool? Lame. SUGAR RUSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! LOLS. laugh wit kavi shafiq si en yi hui Those kids went to republic poly! Am i. The adult. grown-up. Teenager. Went to hwa chong. Funny whole day. I laugh until stomach cramp :[ But this is like so fun! LOLS. Comman test = . = " The question was onii a single-twelve-marks-structured-question. LOLS. It was kinda easy but i never learn. I got all the points but not in sequence so. Yeah. Laughing now just because i tot of yi hui joke. LOLS.

2010-02-18T23:53:00.003+08:00

Ohh yeah. Recently was all those comman test. Hahas. Erm nothing much. Okay i tink i gonna say this lame advanture bran and his bro went trough freaking no life! They go IMM take off the status pant. Den go off the light when ppl in toilet. Den kanna lock outside the hotel room because they were chasing after each other! Sound so crap right? LOLS. Etc etc. Tmr is my social studies test. I'm quite prepared. I chat wit ben for quite some time and we ended up again. Ya must be tinking watt i'm tinking. No doubt. Ya're right. :] And i shall end wit. After sometime. We'll be fine. This is life. Take it easy. No hatred. No hard feelings. Hahas. Erm yeah i said Sorry to him! Whoo right? hahas. And i sent him this multi media msg. he did't recieved. Okay. This is the advanture vivian had today. She found her sister phone. Whoo. And she spent some time to search for the bluetooth. Cool right? Den when i sent my photo to her phone. It hanged. Because her phone is so damn laggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg! And now another step is that she had to overcome the difficulties and obstacle. She cannot find her photo! Alright after sometime she found. Whoo! Den now her photo need to load. She's tinking how to transfer. Great she tot of the way and there she goes her photo.

I'm sorry :[

PS: The next episode of Vivian the explorer. Edited - Dora the explorer LAME

2010-02-15T15:57:00.003+08:00

There's someting i must say! I really must say! FARK = . = " One day my friend buy maggi. She put it on the stove. My friend sister warn. Saying dat her dad is always hungry and if he saw this korean kimchi extra spicy noodle. He can't resist. Den my friends noodle. GONE CASE. Den her kind sister decide t ide for her. Den her sister is out now. Den Now she is damn hungry but she can't find her noodle! Fark.

2010-02-15T15:09:00.003+08:00

Yesterday went to bai nian. Erm. Den most of my relative come to my house. I should say half. Another half was busy or my family goes to their house. I went to bai nian at ben house Kinda
awkward. I had no idea why i felt this way. Alright dat's all. I should be studying for my comman test now. BYE!

PS: We seem so close. Just like strangers.
Tings will be alright. I believe.

2010-02-14T14:46:00.003+08:00

Whoo. Facebook. Sians. My heart is in a mess now. Hee. Confused uhh? Do ya feel this way too? Hahas. It'd been quite sometime since i had this emotion. Hahas. It's like when ya're sleeping and ya suddenly feel this hollow and empty feeling like a gonna fall off the bed. And ya goes boom in ya head. And hooo in ya heart. but in actual fact. Ya are laying there. Still. Den one will feel at a lost. I'm so surprise right now. Because right now my expression is a smile. This freak mii out. The worst feeling is when i feel so gone. Yet no tears manage to come out of my eyes. No more. Not anymore. Onii the smile. The smile dat is so unfamiliar. The smile dat look so hypo. Even now it seems so hypo. Or now. Sound so hypo.

Vivian is a hypocrite.

2010-02-14T13:14:00.003+08:00

Happy valentine! Whoo.

We're like next to stranger.

Ya said i'm too young. I don understand love. To mii love is not just looking at each other. Is looking in the same direction.

2010-02-13T16:13:00.003+08:00

The definition of tiny is Small.

Hahas. Nobody will blame ya. It's mii who is at fault. I ACCUSED ya. I'm sorry. So sorry. I ruin ya. Without mii ya'll be so much better i believe. Look at how far we came. I'm tired. Ya too. Tomorrow is valentine. Hahas... At least i'm single today not tomorrow. There's nothing to moan. Ya don even make a effort to make mi stay. Mii too. We don even try to make each other stay. Simply because ya're tired of these le. And I'm in the fault. I've done so much wrong uhh? So watt am i to say anyting. Hahas. Indeed Vivian is unreasonable. Hahas. Take care.

PS: I will keep loving ya. But i hope ya can move on. Let us say a goodbye that is good. And leave wit a smile. Though it's kinda impossible. :] Looking back to 13 years. Without ya presence i survive. Without my love ya made it.

Valentine is our last chance. If by tomorrow i had not made that move. Den let this story be Vivian and Benjamin. Not us anymore. Loves.

2010-02-12T14:27:00.003+08:00

There's strokes of red mark on my hand... I was so upset... Tinking i'm doing self-Harm? NO WAY MAN! Hahas. I was carrying piles of books la. Where ya tinking? Hahahahahahahahahas.

Watt ya're saying. Especially in public. Like facebook. Is kinda harsh and mean. How the hell the ppl will look at her. It's so misleading. She don meant to make us break. I just heard wrongly. She have no reason to make up stories. I'm not trying to defend anybody. Not leqi. Or myself. Or whoever. I just wanna clarify. Ya know mii. It'd been a year. Ya should know my character. I care about how my friends look at mii. Let alone ya. I just hope ya could be more understanding like how i was told to be understanding. It's just a small misunderstood. SO TINY. I ask for ya forgiveness as i'd accuse ya. I just wanna know.

SORRY BENJAMIN CHUA JIA JUN.

For accusing.

My tone was't angry. Was i? I was't. If ya tink by trusting mii back is difficult just because i don trust ya. Seriously i'm alright. Vivian isn't dat unreasonable afterall. Uhh? If ppl are tinking why this vivian sucks so much.

Don even believe her boyfriend.

I hate her for hurting ben.

Why is she so damn selfish.

Why the hell she can't treat him better. I can onii say.

SHUT YA FARK UP.

Ya're nothing to judge mii. I cried for him more den anybody. Ohh. Maybe other den his family with blood ties. I'm arrogant and proud wit attitude. I don need sympathy or shit.

PS: Laugh ya heads off when ya see how Vivian says herself.

She's saying how much how much she don trust this guy. But the end of the day. She just cry on her bed. And her upbringing was always a issue. Let mii be the mean one. I'll be the bad guy.

2010-02-11T21:32:00.002+08:00

I gossiped. I know my limits. I know my rights. I know my stand. I know. I know watt i wan. I don wanna say sorry anymore. All along. I had decide to trust ya. I admit. I did doubt ya. I the end i still trust ya and gave ya my heart foolishly. I always knew watt it cost to give away my heart. It my life. Everybody know. I could even give ya my life. But ya're so stingy. Even wit words. I don buy that anymore. I hope i had believed ya. I hope. I could believe ya. But i did't. She had no reson to lie. But ya have.

Can i say someting?

My heart is no longer on sale.

2010-02-09T18:36:00.002+08:00

I read this book.

Destiny Cries.

I cried for quite sometime. It's so sad. How i wish i could also find a guy who is willing to die for mii. Hahas. Erm today is my english comman test it was... Fine i should say. Den i went to detention and i stayed there till 4 as the pau promoter instructed. I skip my mother tongue lesson and start loitering. Hahas. I' so tired now. Hahas. Those bunch of gals. Laugh like i'm some comedian. Sometime i really have to clarify. I did nothing but just stare. They can laugh for a good 5 minute. Do i look so so so funny? Erm especially Cyn and Jes. LOLS. Laugh from the start of the path to the end of the corridor. From the entrance of the gate to the exit of the MRT station. Hahas. I can't belive how stupid i appear in them dat can make them laugh like now. Cyn claim that she had nvr laugh so much compared to last year. Hahas. Den she must be very emotional den. Ohh ya. I skip PE too. Cyn was complaining how hungry she was. So we skip and blend into the surrounding and had our meal. Instead i should rephrase as. Her meal. Den They took photos of mii stuffing this lense into my eyes. I really have to admit how JESLYN can be so Irritating. LOLS. Tell ya uhh!!

@$(*&^%#@!@*()

She stretch my eyes and put in the CL so forcefully i blink and CYNTHIA & JESLYN was screaming at mii saying. Don blink la. Fast fast put can go le. I show them my second signature face.

= . = "

So i shouted back. How can i not blink when somebody poke my eyes. This is my norm reaction watt. Hahahahahahhahahahahahahs. So cute. I just hope one day i can do the same ting to ya guys. Maybe like when they're eating i show them someting i just puke out. When they feel like puking. I'll say don puke la. Same here right? Norm reaction.

2010-02-07T13:27:00.003+08:00

Alright... Uhh. Yesterday. Went out wit cyn. Cool happy. Hahas. Thanks so much for the fun... Although it's kinda not well organised! Hahas. The movie. Erm actually suck. But it's okay. I spent 60 on the buffet. As i promise cyn a meal. Hahas. Den 50 buck top up. Den 10 for movie. Whoo. I hate myself for spending so much. I gonna save back whithin this month. I declare shirley had return the money she own. But i haven go check la! Hahas. Erm. Okay i tink my parents are fine with this aarangement. He seem alright too. thanks Weilun for the ride. Anyway. He nvr gotta see my gatitude. Hahas. Don say it's never too late. Sometimes it's just too late to even make thing alright. i've add all those cute cute ppl in the cliques esterday. Hahas. I suppose ya guys could't find mii lo. My face different right. Hahas. Sians. BTW! Thanks jee fei for the bears so cute... Hahas.

2010-02-02T20:08:00.004+08:00

Today quarreled wit xiao fen. Lame right? LOLS. Just because i told her she's kinda loud and i hope she can lower down her volume. I swear. I really swear in a polite & absolutely no sarcasm tone. She scream at her top of her lungs saying dat i can comment as much as i wan but she'll not change for mii. So i goes.

Vivian: All i wan is ya to lower down my volume. Such simple english ya don understand.

Xiaofen: Okay. watt ya're doing now don concern mii and it does't affect mii. I don wan to prolong this conversation anymore. Stop stop stop!

Vivian: I really hope it don concern ya but ya're blasting my ear off. So it afterall it does matters right?

Xiaofen: Ya ya. Den sorry la.

Vivian: Good lo. Den i forgive ya lo.

Xiaofen: But listen. Vivian. I don need ya to forgive mii.

Vivian: I don really wanna insist but ya apologies so i have to.

After lesson.

Xiaofen came asking for mii wanna make mii embarrassed. Telling mii how rude i am. And saying we're not friends. Just teacher & student. Of course watt do ya expect? Lovers? Or BFF? LOLS. She said other den schoolwork don tok to her. Ya. Hahas. So i said same goes to mii. WTH!? Hahas? did i even discuss tings dat are irrelevant to schoolwork? Unreasonable.

Den after long consideration and some advice from peers. I've taken apologizing a really serious consideration. But before i could even say someting. She step into the classroom tell everybody how great this student is to quarrel wit her and waste her whole CME lesson regards. ANGER MANAGEMENT. Laugh was my onii reaction. By all means. Bring it on. I fear nothing. I feel nothing.

Okay... My boyfriend wanna take leave off again.

2 weeks was watt he apply and approved was watt i reply. Again valentines alone. Hahas.

Claps.

i use to say all crap telling them stuff. But still to them i'm seeking attention. I can't deny. When i'm speaking basic attention is of course a must. Or i'll said to be autistic. Again. I hope time could be re-winded. Anyway everybody is happy now right? So everyting is going on well now.

I feel so empty after hearing those comment from my teacher. I just wan her to lower down... Her volume. I just hope by helping ya to get over a financial crisis i'll be repay by gratitude not by avoiding. I'm always tinking why i always seems like i'm asking for tons of shit. But in fact it's just noting costly or wattever. It's a smile. I just hope being friendly and sociable is not being look at attention seeker. I just hope watt promised are supposed to be done. I just hope evryting had not happened. Not the fight. Not the loan. Not the acting. And Everyting will be alright after I've sleep.

PS: My SMILE :] Are still alive! But that onii apply after i sleep.

Goodnight.

2010-01-31T09:49:00.002+08:00

I just remember someting! My boyfriend wore my pink FBT! Hahas! Cute? Yeah.

Hungry. Grrr.

Not feeling well? Yes

There's someting i like to conclude. Gals like saying how fat they are and how ugly they look demoting themself. But when another woman walk pass and said someting like. " Hey look! She look so fat. OMG! I can't believe it!" Or. " Ehh this Buangsai so ugly sia!" The gal will start making a fuss the same time criticizing other party appearance. Hahas. But in the end they still go around saying how ugly they were.

2010-01-29T19:53:00.004+08:00

Hypocrite. Bring it on. They're said to be not worth over tears.

Yay! i've got serious cramp today. Den. I tahan whole day. Today is a short day. But the end of the day make it seems like another day. I know nobody get watt i mean. Hahas. Okay. I got tons of stuff to say. I donno how to line it into sentences and a loading in my mind. Before i start saying indie got crash up. Okay i remember one. This one lame de. Please when somebody come my house don touch my bed. I tickle my boyfriend with my cold fingers. He goes screaming and screaming till he saliva drip all over my bed. I laugh and laugh. Den he do project i sit there sobbing.he ignore mii continue doing he work. Ya know why? because i'm watching hai pai tian xin!!! Sad! Den he goes home without mii sending. I haven eat yet la... sad. Later cramp plus gastric! Hahas! CUI KIA!

I never controlled the speed of any friendship i've been involve with. I believe friends, 9 out of10 turn teir backs the one dat stay and look backs. It's still all worth.I did't nurtured our bonding so i have one to share. I tok to one dat is bonded to mii.

PS:Looking back 5 out of 10 left.

I'm not left wit nothing it's a 5 :]

2010-01-27T19:07:00.002+08:00

Hahas... Alright... So i'm so attention seeking. So annoying. So act cute. Hahas... ya okay. Accept. Dat's all la. I did't know why i could treat ya guys like my friend. And ya compared to friendship golds are dirt. To ya guys. I'm dirt. So sians. Uhh yeah. Ya ya ya. I'm seeking attention now! Am i ? Am i? Uhh? Fcuk off Fcuk off Fcuk off! Uhh! Wattever watt watt watt... Why do i even bother... ya why did i ever act like we've been so close? Why the fcuk i donno how to think? Act like so close. In the end i still donno watt ya all tinking... Watt ya all saying about mii. Thanks for acting. And sorry for not knowing who i am. Where i stand. Watt i count. In ya eyes...

PS: I'm feeling so so so stupid more & more. Ya i should sleep. And continues.

And cry my heart out.

2010-01-26T21:32:00.003+08:00

Hahas. Today. Apologise for not meeting ya guys. Hahas. I meet ben instead of thoses gals. Sorry! hahas. Alright. Den study slack walk around den ben go home. Den i'm rotting at home. Den we saw the video. Our big big cute cute ms.low sing de song. Wah! She's the K-Queen man. Erm. Ben says ms. low force students to buy her album! Hahas. Okay let's damn levina first. She post my most unglam photo in her blog. And i should say. AGAIN! = . = " Dat mad black fish uhh! ARG!!! Hahas.

This smart ass. Call her take our face onii. Make mii look short & she look taller. Ya look watt she've done? OMG right? But nvm i ugly i know. Hahas. If pretty watt pose also nice de la. Like mii. Yucks.

I'm asking for a change. But i'm afraid dat i might not be able to adapt. If i did.

I'm so sorry.

Benjamin.

2010-01-23T10:23:00.002+08:00

Oh yeah i had an busy week. Everyting went as per norm. But my time is really really running fast.My chen & physic is still okay... PE. I no longer wear FBT. ijust wear during the friday workoutSocial studies & geography. Great. I still could manage. English MT still alright. Amath Emath. No comment. Hahas. Okay... Den ya. i just woke up around 9 plus. Everybody left the house. I'm suppose to study today. Tmr meeting jeslyn. We gonna do our F & N Tgt. Loving uhh? Somehow my every recess is wit those gals... Fish. Cat. Pig. Gum. Ling. Alright. Den forgotten those. Confiscate. & shit stuff. Let mii recall. Friday. Whoo orientation. Fun. i help both environment club & library. I help library more due to the teacher-in-charge. She voice out her unhappiness. Hahas. Den kavi & co was slacking around. Looking at chio gals. Hoping they'll come forward and ask about our CCAs. Or they just gonna give the green bookmark name golden ticket to them. Hahas. This joseh. I beat him up for saying my nose. Ya la ya la. Big la. I inherited this is not my fault. Den he take his green apple tea point it to my nose and ask. Ehh wan drink not? WTH! He say i drink wit my nose. & he keep saying my nose is two black hole. Absorb everyting he can een see the light bending! WTH! Hahas. CBK!@#()*^%#@!@^*()*$#@#%&*(@. Den edmund & co. Keep coming dashing towards my nose. Saying i'm absorbing him. & scream for help. Everybody puling him so he won't So-called suck into my nose. WTF! LOLS. Bunch of Lamers. Low IQ! Siao. Hahas. Dat's all. Bye.

PS: If ya're awaiting to be trusted. Prove it.

BTW. Last 3 second. I kanna sot by this damn laptop. Ouch. Hahas.

Okay dat's all.

2010-01-18T19:51:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry. But i defy ya wish. I know some might be unhappy. Sorry. I tink i can plan for myself... Thanks for ya advise If i'm wrong this time. Blame myself den. Okay. Today woke up late. This is't someting to actually. WOW! But still i look so surprise & chiong up chiong down during dawn. Den write reflection. Saw Damon. pass him the Tee. PE. Run Baby Run. Listening to Ms.Fern saying how she kanna rub & touch & wattever in the MRT. Learning about coastline. Test regard the school laboratory apparatus. A Math revision. & lastly the molested teacher reading aloud. A cripple & a kite. Den i go library. Thanks to Senior JF for ya books. Yay! Formet. Example. Elaborate. Link. I memorised it already.Went to Pizza hut. We onii spent 21 dollars. Great uhh? Go take my scholarship. Yay! It's all a worth. Thanks. Ms.tay. I really have to say... Without ya. I would't have been watt i am now. Although i not any smarties. But still. THANKS!

PERSON.

In between everyting.

Person A called person B. Person B intend to reject the offer. Person B don't gain. Moreover Person B is putting Himself at risks. Person A don sound convincing. Well. Person B decide to try His luck. It's not a small sum. Nor a big sum compared to a friendship. BTW. If there had't be a Person C. Everybody will be happier. & i doubt Person B will even hesitate.

The end.

PS: I really Hope ya could be trusted. Don't let mii down again. Alright? :] I must've be not in the right state of my mind when i decided this. Hope. Everybody is wrong. & i'm right. :] God bless mii!

2010-01-17T21:27:00.002+08:00

Hoo! It had been sometie since i posted someting here. Aiyah anyting ya guys wanna know regard how my yesterday went. Let visit the big big levina blog! OMFG! & Amecan! Both of them will be punish by one big hug of mine for ruining my image. & Rewarded one tight slap. & Again for ruining my inage. Damn it. Hahas. UGLY UGLY UGLY! Hahas. But i don mind. This is mii. Okay i really do mind. But i've to say i don't since it's already uploaded. Hahas. Lot's of HMWK. I did't manage to finish. Unexpectedly. Ben came. He seems to be very tired. As he fall asleep again. Applaus! Ya. Opps. Let's retype this sentence. As he fall asleep AGAIN. = . = " Ya ya ya. Anyway he nvr had the habit of viewing blog compared to FB la. Okay so I did't reply his msg. Because. I'm unhappy. To be exact i donno how to. Hahas. Having really really bad mood. Due to the pressure of my studies. Due to the Few Brothers-For-life. I actually. Had. Due to my house. I hate to return after a tiring day. & nobody at sight. Sitting alone. The television nvr ever tried calling mii out. The timid phone don't dare to made a sound. Onii the book & the radio. or maybe another scenery. I reaches home. I saw this woman position in my mess-up room. Staring hard at mii. Compaq is her life. She view manga & japanese drama. I start to make noise. & i end up in the dining room. Still reading book. But no radio. The onii difference is the venue & the DJ. It's 9.42 now. & still nobody at sight. Since this morning. I'm chatting wit ben but this don't build up my mood. Because i just earn myself a slap. I feel so boring...

PS: Ya guys don't mean much to mii. So shut up if this kinda tingy break our friendship. Not worth it at all.

2010-01-13T18:51:00.004+08:00

Hahas. Ya. First i wanna say. I'm fine. Not dat weak. So ya i did rest well. Any human will be sick eventually. LOLS. Okay let's start wit my speech now. I wanna say! I very very long nvr see ppl blog le. Although i did follow but i did't even really peep so ya. I gonna taggy ya guys! Whoo yay! Okay den i tell ya all hor. My skirt kanna caught again. Bullshit. Stupid chao sng! Eee! My skirt. [ This second. Ben call & our conversation last so long! Whoo it's a big big TEN SECOND] Applaus. = . = " I like my present class. They very cute! Sometime they laugh suddenly. They made comment. Some stand up & strech. & we believe in democracy. We always vote for Vote! Hahas. So glad. But still I miss 2/3... Alright. So sng call mii give ez-link i drag & drag. In the end i call her go away. I won't give. Please lo. My skirt so long. But after asking few of the grown-ups. They say short. Okay! I brought a new one. I'll fold after school. & unfold during assembly. Chao sng! uhh! Den she give mii letter call mii show my mum. During recess i show her. MY NEW DAMN LONG CUTE FREAKY SKIRT. She praises mii. I deserve it. I crash the letter she gave. I Rock. Alright. So math. WHOO! Really very difficult la. I spent whole evening wit Gabrielle. Jeslyn & Fiona. Doing Math. Hahas. Den i saw YC & CO. They playing chi-na. Game. Hahas. Erm. Den. Meet aunt. Quarreel wit sis. To preserve the already strain image of my sis. I shall not say watt happen. Although her image had already ruin. UHH! Hahas. Now. At home. Doing nothing. Going bathe sleep. Tmr study my math again. Whoo. I must not neglect my SS too. Everyting a milion times harder. Uhh! Vivian I love ya. Do ya best! I know ya can! Yay! Bye bey! narcissist woman.

2010-01-12T11:35:00.003+08:00

Yesterday nvr sleep. Well. So today headache. & stomach ache. So ya. I skip school today. Heng yesterday. I did self-revision. Den today teacher teach the same ting i did yesterday. I gonna rest awhile. Really tired. Hahas.

2010-01-08T20:28:00.002+08:00

I should't call ya. I donno watt i wanna say. because watt i always say i nvr do it. Shut up la vivian. God. it's like. WTH la? I say if this continue. I gonna hang up. & i did just dat. Almost first time in my life. & yes yes yes. Unhappiness & friction was caused. Ended abruptly by saying. Hugs. I mean. Does it help? At all? I find it so helpless when i voice out & the expected reaction is always not expected. Sometimes. I expected the expected is not expected. But somehow i wanna give myself some false hope. Why can't this stop? Not mood swings. Not depression. Just find myself not able to defend myself in this relationship. Is this worth? But. I'm tired. Saying this crap. Crying & feeling shag & stress again. Not because of my studies. I'm coping well. Compared to my relationship. But please please. I should really STFU Because. I could't end this... So my grumbles. Will never end till the day. I changed my status to. In a relationship wit Ben chua.

Part-time? Sorry.

2010-01-08T20:08:00.002+08:00

Today like sians sians. Listening to Ms.Tay & Sng lesson. Feel like sleeping. But quite slack la. Okay den recess. Den after dat. Math. Amanda teach mii the wrong stuff. = . = " LOLS. Thanks Liangyee. Ya're the bro man. Hahas. I always wanna laugh when i saw Ms.Fern face. I just remember someting. Ya know there's an calculation error when she check the amount of forms handed. We laughing at her. She say she don mind. But i know she do. Dramatic & lively plus sarcasm in her teaching. I do enjoy. When she does. But not when it's to mii. Mii & Gabrielle wanna change place ma. Den she ask for suggestion. Den i say swop place wit this & dat. Den she say it's unfair to let other student sit the place we guys rejected. & i told her why is it fair for us to sit at the place in the first place. She shut up. LOLS. She rearrange the class structure. & mii & gabrielle was position right in the middle.

Quarrels & quarrels. Never ending shit.

2010-01-05T17:22:00.003+08:00

Update now la. = . = " hahas. Kinda stress today. From observing the teachers expression. I feel so pressurised. They like so serious saying all the same shit. LOLS. Ehh i'm so tired. My alarm did not ring. I nearly late. cab to school. I don understand why i always meet those uncle who donno the way. KNS. Den this uncle anyhow drive i told him i gonna be late in 3 minutes time. He still go wrong way. I nearly scream my lungs out in the car. But i did't i was too kind. I'm tinking if i really donno the way & i kanna scream i'll slap the bitch. So ya. Anyway i was't late. I heard dat there's this veitnam trip. Quite excited. I decided my roommates le. Chanel & this frined of hers. Actually wanna join jeslyn de. But her group like full liao. So nvm la. Kakakas. It gonna be fun. So let's have high hopes. I don wan disappointment. Tired! I sleep in mrt. This uncle landed on my toes. & treat it like nobody business. & walk off. I diao him. But fake blind. LOLS. But thanks to him. or i would have reach joo koon lo. Hahahs. Bye bey. Tmr gonna stay in library lo. Sians. Now i know i don't miss my life. I should have give this life a miss. LOLS. Bye.

2010-01-03T01:30:00.003+08:00

Hahas! Ya. Today went Malaysia. Den steamboat. Uhh. No more mood. No more phone. We can't text. Alright. Due to different view. We had a lil bit of friction again. How many many many times. I should say. SO YA COULD GET WATT I MEAN. I don like my phone hang without my approval. Or should i say. Without mii noticing. I don understand. I'm not gonna call ya. I feel so wrong. & confused. Watt was dat for. Hahas. Alright. I gonna sleep. Practical. Practical stuff. I'm like. I can't give. I don go for dat. To mii ya just seems like ya don appreciate my present. I can't blame ya. It's not someting ya wan. I'm just so not sensible... I hate myself. I hate ya. SUA. Sua. sua. I going bathe den sleep. Tok to the bear. BTW. If ya really not so fond of the bear. I'll be disappointed but it's alright. I'll have another bear to hug. return it. I'll be more den happy. I mean it. When i say someting. I'm prepare to accept it. So don worry for mii. Just like when ya say don worry for ya. Alright.

Conclusion.

If ya don like someting from mii return. Because. It cost mii a load.

Mutual respect towards our views on different matters & religious & spiritual stuff.

Don Hang my phone.

If ya give mii someting I'll love it. I don care watt is it la. I'm sure i do.

I'll respect ya views & won't tell ya anymore crap.

I believe ya don like ya conversation to be cut off unknowingly too.

I won't call ya cause i'm angry & i lost my phone so good luck to both. Of us.

PS: Goodnight. Ya can have a good rest without tinking dat i'm pressing ya for time. I Just wanna bathe just now. But nvm... Giva & take. Alright. Sorry. I apologise for the misleading. So everyting could be solved okay?

2010-01-01T19:16:00.002+08:00

Ehh. Yesterday went to countdown wit ben! Yay! Hahas. We went to Kok how countdown first. Den play play play. Quite okay la. Haahs. Den after that go jon house. Fun. & chio. Kakakakakakakakakakas. Den erm... This sister puke. Den we play mahjong. Den Xuejing dage like so hungry. Eat eat eat. Pong pong pong. Den another sister keep hu. I donno sit ther do watt. Just to feed the little xuejing. Hahas. He gonna kill mii! Okay. Den ben say he can hear fire works. I tink he is a freaking bombster. Den i laugh. but when i heard it myself. I stun. My bad. Den i told him i saw fireworks. I tink he must be tinking i'm another freaking bombster. But later on he saw it himself. Laugh laugh. Den ben send mii home. I laugh @ da ge hairy arm. I know la he hate mii. Admit it! LOLS. Den this group of Bangla stare @ mii. So my dear sent mii home... He worry ma. Thank ya. Den i gave him the bear bear... Hee. I love ya... School reopening. Mood almost back. So today i went Zhou kitchen wit this half of my family. Grandparents. & co. = . =" So ya guys expect mii to name all out right? But i donwan leh. I wear this suit like very cute de. Abit like Minnie mouse one la. Anyway i got home. LAstly. Happy new year guys. A new starting of everyting.

2009-12-30T15:45:00.002+08:00

Uhh. Bastard. I fcuking pissed off. I wasted my whole day. Spent an hour staying in the rain waiting for dat SOB! He's the one who needed my help. & i fcuk well still need wait. OMG! Tai laing yee. Fcuk a sheep! Asshole. So after dat stomach pain. Whole morning i onii had a sip of chrysanthemum tea. & i left home. Somemore is those really really pain. Den i spent 20 minute line up. Den i wanna puke. Plus nothing inside my stomach. I ran out of the queue & chiong into the ladies. Puke all gastric juice. Den go back line up again. I spent another 45 minute. Like an idiot. I hate myself for being a retard. I should't have take his word for true. Because when i done my card. I saw Liang yee & co. Standing outside lot 1. Hand wit the Popular plastic bag. Shit ya man jerk! I ran there keep beating him. Den jiaming & joseph & edmund. Keep cheering. They donno watt happen. But They say he deserve it. LOLS. Supportive. Den they go home. Congrats Adam for the progressive award which is so not true. Hahas. & joseph. For Obama came knocking ya door & landed wit his helicopter wit $500 cash handed to ya hand personally. Crap. Bombster. It just some cheque by mail. from MOE. LOLS. Bye sians.

2009-12-29T23:10:00.002+08:00

Suay. one whole day. I got shocked! Whoo uhh wah ehh opps god man wee oii. Uhh. Not gonna elaborate. the overall stuff are. Yay! i lost my phone & my walet there's about $120 bucks onwards excluding my ez-link. Thanks god for this punishment. I must've been sinful in my whole life. Ohh. Maybe my toes should be roll over by a bicycle. & My fingers broke when i wash my dishes this morning. Serious hair loss when i wash my hair. & grew a stomach ulcer. Cancer & stuff. Enough of insulting myself. Watt i'm referring is i'm lucky to have lost my wallet & $ & E51. But i really have to say i really can't convince myself. I gonna give myself more time to get over this. My mum are just too tired of these shit. I'm alright. Thanks to ben for consoling mii using the theory of. Treat-it-as-littering-&-Santa-are-financially-in-need. LOLS. FINE. Clap clap! I look so easy on this issue right? Cause i'm just like too devastated & speechless. So wattever i say i just say it. But the real words are right. Bottom. In my heart. ALRIGHT! I nvr gonna get a new phone. & this is the time i should not waste anymore $ & be more careful & bring a bigger bag. I can't be not learning this round. Cause my communication tool is leaving mii for good. Almost sleeping now. Gonna eat tmr. Maybe wit liang yee. We live the same life. He lost his phone too. God! less us! Hahas. He gonna pei mii go do Ez-link & we'll do the transfer tgt. Goodnight!

2009-12-28T12:29:00.002+08:00

Gonna change my posting style. I find it kinda boring.

To always put my words in a chunk. Lame.

Hahas. I'm stationary @ home staring @ my bear.

Nothing better to do la.

Okay. I not hungry @ all. I feel so full! Hahas. I can don eat for weeks.

Full la. I'm like doing my everyday stuff. I open my eyes. Look around.

Hug my bear. On the radio. Walk around. Light bulbs all on.

I manage to get hold of my urge. Of the damn chocolate.

There nobody i can't live without & ppl i can't live wit.

Onii things. I feel so dead. Thought like rushig through my mind. Chiong chiong chiong.

5 minute ago. I look @ the time it's 12.42.

After 5 minute. I look @ the time agian. I can't believe it's actually. 12.47

Time moving so slow. Uhh! throat so pain!

KNS.

Just saw a msg from my Dar dar! Whoo. Like how long i never wrote dat on my blog.

But i won't change my status leh. i just don feel like it.

It start wit. Bear bear... & end wit :) A smile smile face.

Ehh ehh ehh.

I'm too bored to do anyting.

Sky seem so dark. I wanna change & head to JP. But i'm too lazy to move.

Moreover if i go alone. I swear i gonna cry on my way back.

I gonna cook if not i won't recover. But i won't wanna wash the dishes.

I gonna lie down & tin of nothing. or someting. But this don kill my time.

I should've skip the chalet tingy.

& go the the CAMERA island.

I should be eating strawberries & looking @ the cloud dat race against the wind.

But i'm just crapping la.

Even if i'm oversea. I'll still be sick. Crying on bed la. LOLS.

Lastly. Dear Ben.

I miss ya. I'm waiting for the Bear bear! Hahas. Take ya time. No rush. LOLS. ASAP. JK la. I'm not dat materialistic watt! Hahas. & this second. I found out... I forgotten to reply ya text. Hahas. Paiseh la. Uhh! I lame la. Looking @ my toes. & draw a smile smile face on every toes. Den i wrote one Ben on the big big de. Hahas. LOLS. Romantic right? Ya galfriend actually wote ya name on her toes. Went to wish Adelene Happy birthday!

Spontaneous Idealist

When you are in love, you easily outperform all other personality types in terms of enthusiasm and panache. Then your commitment knows no limits. You go out of your way in your eagerness to express your affection, and in your happiness, you are ready to embrace the entire world. When watching your attempts to flirt, one can’t help but think about a puppy dancing happily around its new playmate. Then for you simply nothing exists but your newfound love. „Hold your horses!“ - “Discretion is the better part of valor!” - “All that glitters is not gold!” - these worldly wisdoms are nothing but a waste of time.

With the entire spontaneity of your personality type, you instinctively immerse yourself in your emotions because you are sure that this time you have found the perfect partner. And you want everything here and now. You can probably go through as many divorces and separations as you want, but you are never going to learn from experience and at the age of 70 - and with shining eyes - you are still ready to walk down the aisle. Your friends may sometimes have a problem watching this, but they can only shake their heads in exasperation, and hope and pray, because in those moments you won’t accept advice from anyone. Then it would be easier to get in the way of a Tsunami.

In a long-term partnership you are a charming, affectionate, and unconventional partner, always good for a surprise, always there if you are needed, always ready for a loving compliment. As generous as you are with your feelings, so do you love to spend money and lavish your partner with gifts - sometimes even causing the very security minded and conservative types in the relationship to get a little weak in the knees. Should they now be happy that you abducted them to a luxury hotel for a romantic weekend, or should they be concerned whether there will be a problem when the next rent payment becomes due? Everyday things only interest you peripherally anyway; sometimes you walk with a downright childish confidence through life believing that the universe, fate or some other supreme powers are going to make sure that at the end everything will work out. So, why worry and save? It is interesting that this sometimes even works!

http://www.ipersonic.com/

Fullstop.

2009-12-27T07:17:00.004+08:00

Whoo. Yesterday! Was kinda bad day. I mean last night... Uhh! Forget about those shit. Today i woke up @ 5 my sore throat really jia lat. Wake up. To eat grapes. LOLS. Lame la. Went to my bros blog! I found out how invisible i am! From all those pic! I could onii see my arm! T . T If our dear poor LY Had not lose his phone. I could've upload my Xin xin ku ku capture de pictures le. But his sorrow of losing a phone can't be much compare to mii who lost my Pictures. C'mon it's just some pictures. Not my toes or fingers. Forget it! Hahas. I did stare at the sky. I saw... Nothing! Not one star. Just red red leh. Uhh iden i start rubbing my bruises. Thanks to her! But it's over la. I took a tissue. I cough & cough hoping to see someting. Ohh nothing! Grape grape grape. 2 KG of grape make mii wanna puke again... Okay this guy. He's stange. On day he went to korea. In the end he came back. I mean there's nothing wrong. But watt is so wrong is dat. He sent mii a max 2K letters msges. Ah Ben said SMS stands for Short messaging system. Apparently he don understand! LOLS. I mean okay lets reply his msg now. Whoo. I'm like featuring those kinda Barney show. Let do it together. Not DIY. Is DIT. = . =" Erm okay. first paragraph. I gonna say. WOW! Erm. I don really like to eat meat :] Ohh ya. Good luck to dat her dat ya miss... LOLS = . =" Hahas. Second day. I donno how to ski... But ya lack of exercise la . Hahas. So fast muscle pain le. Hahas. I climb before mountain. Under hot sun. So ya. Enjoy lo. Hahas. "Onii"? Okay. Wah Bear museum. Rocks. I bet it's bigger den the Singapore toy museum la. Dat time i go wit levina hor. LOLS. Okay fullstop. Reply his Text first = . = " But there's someting i wanna laugh! Charge phone sleep? LOLS! Why the hell ya said dat? LOLS. Strange. Shiok lo. Play pirate ship. Hahas. I pathetic. Onii play before @ genting. Ohh. My X'mas present? Thanks so much... Hahas = . =" I mean no sarcasm :] Just Strange. Wah... Lotte hotel. Sound like chocolate. To be continued... Okay ya second text reply. Ya went to the palace? & ya call it sians? Hahas. Take photo ma. Kim chi DIY! So good. Ya said it's nice but i doubt it. Because i don trust ya culinary skill! LOLS. Theme park again. Fortunate kid. Okay blogger. I wanna show ya guys this sentence. It sound real weird. " Almost killed mii it's like walking naked." But when ya see this sentence. "OMG. Just walk in the rain" Wah it reduce the pervertic feel right? Just kidding! I'll puke at this kinda weather ya right! Thanks for the new award! = . =" Vomit queen. LOLS... If i could see snow. I don mind the Fcukfcukfcuk Coldness. Wah ya donno wan die how many times in Korea. = . =" Okay guys. Another sentence. Dat make one uncomfortable. " CB Can't breath properly" Do ya mind putting a comma? LOLS. okay but if ya see this phrase " Happy but sick" Uhh. ya feel better when ya shop because ya're using ya dad $. LOLS. BTW I took very long to read & reply. Guys who wanna enjoy this privilege of reply text on blog. Send mii a long one. I promise ya'll get a load of sarcastic remark. = . =" Anyway. This Strange pervertic mad free LOLS loaded sick lame stupid lazy stalk guy is... I'm too kind to say out.

PS: I"m a nice man :] JEE FEI YONG ZHI HUI is the guy = . = "

Tag! I spent years & years. Just to complete this post. LOLS.

2009-12-25T17:37:00.003+08:00

Yesterday. X'mas eve! Hohoho. I did't give watt i wanted to. I said watt i wanted to. But i receive none i expected. Ehh went to Swenson wit ben for lunch. Okay. Average la. Not as if those meals were fabulous. & after dat. Both of us. No life one. Came to my house... My mum & aunt was at home. Hahas. Den after dat. We went to my dad office. I mean for a steamboat. But i donno why it turn out to be a BBQ. Anyway. We station there from evening till 11 plus. He was drived home. Hahas. Today! Nobody jio out. As for my brothers & co. Basketball Uhh uhh. It's boring to celebrate X'mas @ the basketball court. Or the swimming pool. Anyway. Uhh ya guys just enjoy la. Too bad i'm not a Christian. Or how happening will it be now. Spraying & picturing mii & my friends wit the X'mas tree on town. Chey! Joseph & co. Went countdown yesterday! Whoo. Tot they no life. Wah! Now they've got a bit la. I'm done wit my stuff. Gonna bathe & go JP wit sis. See watt she want. We exchange MYSTERY present. It's MYSTERY because she can choose someting she like. LOLS.

= . ="

2009-12-22T18:43:00.001+08:00

Liang yee spare phone kanna sold when he lent to his friend. Now his actual phone lost. OMG! Anybody seen it?

2009-12-22T17:14:00.003+08:00

I went to chalet. It was fun. Except. Ya. Okay. I went on the 2nd day. When i reach. Some offensive bastard who show no respects to gals. Says: Ohh Vivian can sleep in the toilet. Call her come clean up the mess la. Freaking pissed. & i was like. Ya guy call mii come just because ya need a maid or for watt? Millions of times i said ya guys really need to keep jokes & respect. Balanced. Anyway. After dat. Whoo hoo hoo. Happy times. I clean up we chat & rent a bike for 24 hours. Sadly. Our KTKQ return due to the meeting wit his man. Uhh. & we chiong go watch Avatar. Kinda nice. Trust mii. So we meet suhaimi. & we tried to strat a fire. Wah. I look at the other apartment. & i look at ours. I laugh, We produce the most smoke. We almost use an hour to even start the fire. & i can see others apartment hyper gays. Eating their chicken wings. Ohh god. & the unhappy ting occurs all along. Skipped dat part. Thanks to joseph. Liang yee. Jian feng. For offering the help. But joseph succeed. Adam was eating the prawn. I put the prawn. He peng. I butter. He find a chio place. We secretly eat those prawns. Whoo brothers for life! Thanks edmund for the damn drink dat ya let mii drink & i hit ya & ya spilled on the floor & i have to mop the damn floor. Levina go home le. I wanna sent her de. But. Ya know. Hahahs! Okay. So. They call mii catch them up. They go first. They'll slow. Very slow. & i say okay. I peng my satay. & shared the chicken wing wit adam. & when i go to the park find. Erm. This guy. Whistling & keep Staring at mii so i went back. Partially due to the rain also la. I ate maggi & saw this guy on the television. Mii & amecan say he look very very much like ben. When i eat the maggi. I kept staring at him. And i cannot stop laughing la. Adam & his galfriend might be reproducing. I'm not sure. = . = "They came back. I gave each of them either one punch slap kick. & rest awhile chat play cards. Jiu set off wit them we went so far so far. So shiok sia. Hahas. Thanks brothers for guiding mii all the way. I KNOW I'M SLOW & DELAYED YA PPL! Sorry la! Hahas. So ya we gather at the room. Ohh those lamers la. Say they changing pants. & change for half an hour. i donno how they even change sia. I bang the door. & manage to open the door without violence. Ya know how gentle i am de ma! Hahas. I admit dat i threaten them dat's all. We stayed inside. I scream like watt lo. They keep disturb la. We saying bout ghost. We scream until cannot lo. Scaring ourself is fun. But i tink we exceeded cause i had nightmare! Ohh! The guys sleep on the bed. Mii & amecan sleep on the floor wit a thick mattress. I find our situation better because they squeeze until like shrimp & packed sardine lo. Adam & his gal was donno doing watt beside mii. = . =" Afterall we had fun la. Check out. Den eat lo. Den slack. Cam whore. When i go home this

Caucasian says: How can i go Outram?

I said: Take the train on the other side & when ya heard the stop "Outram park". Ya can just alight.

Caucasian: Ya going the same way?

I said: Nope. My train is here. [And i pointed in the directions]

Caucasian: Bitch/Babe.[ I can't hear clearly] Do ya care to exchange our contact. Ya won't mind. Would ya?

I run away sia. = . =" He look at mii. I was in the train already. He was saying fcuk ya. If i'm not wrong. so i pointed him the middle finger. & surprisingly he laugh & pointed mii dat. He must be tinking dat i'm playing wit him. Idiot. LOLS.

PS: My one & onii SHI FU! Ya one & onii TU DI! Hear mii out this once okay? Open ya eyes wide. Afterall. It's still ya choice. All along i'm just giving ya face. Ya should know watt i mean. :]

2009-12-19T22:08:00.002+08:00

Today was a boring day. Well i miss the steamboat. I've alot to say de but. Not now. I play someting. I'm not feeling really well. I tried out wit my mum & sis. My sis is fine. She did not concentrate. I'm feeling very confused & abit of heart broken. My mum taught mii someting she learnt. Which we should't try out. I receive the energy & got all the answer i wan. Almost all. But i donno how to release. Now i possess the feelings of those ppl i tried out. Omg! I play fire la! Ohh gosh. but i gonna risk & try again once tmr... To get the answer i wan. Goodnight.

PS: Sorry... I just knew the feelings of ya guys.

2009-12-18T14:39:00.005+08:00

Sometimes in life. Ya just gotta get watt ya hate. But ya somehow just can't hate watt ya've got. It's always like dat. I enjoyed the chalet. Except the sleeping part. & i love playing mahjong's But uhh. I still not very familiar. Erm. Ya night i'm so tired & boring! But uhh! To kill boredom. I went around di siao-ing others Wake them up but eventually they sleep back. BBQ was quite a success too. But KBox & Movies fail. Whoo. Next time ba. Erm. Tan BQ Was actually yesterday. But they say it's too rush. So cancelled. Also next time ba. Today Ben gonna sing wit Xue jing & Co. I nothing to do. Waiting for my aunt. Sians sians sians. Someone. Come sudden attack @ My house la. JKJK! Ohh ya. The chalet was so ex. $600. The service don really deserve this sum la. Might as well go somebody house! Hahas. Ohh ya Happy birthday to Evan! I gave him the T-shirt for his birthday :] Frankly speaking. I'm really looking forward to my plain & nerdy life. Stoning in the school library. & tends to go stagmont. Laughing crapping wit those gangster who hate studying & smoke & drink & stuff. Comparing dat to my present life. Work & Tinking bout stuff. Sleep. Slack go out. No studies no nothing. It do really make my thumb stick out & four fingers hidden. How many times must i say I miss those life? Miss those times wit ya gals just screaming & playing. Miss those time wit ya guys. Just loitering & laughing. Just when i'm about to cherish. It vanish. It's like we don't even rememeber each other now. Some of us will be leaving this clique. Hahas. I'll miss those who miss mii & deserve my missing! No la Kidding. I'll miss all. Anyway i say so much. Is to promote the idea of going to joseph chalet. I wanna see all of the usual 5 except. Ong! He going oversea. Bye ong! Hahas. & gals. if ya all can go jiu go la. If can't overnight nvm. Be more sporting la dey! Hahas. If nvr go for no reason. or Excuses such as: Sians la. Those ppl hor. Can go die le. I tink erm Shirley la. Adam la. Jian feng la. & others idiot! !@#^&*()(*&^%$#@! Always give those excuse. If donwan go. Just say la. Hahas. I won't blame ya guys. Just do let mii see ya. No offend! Hahahs :] Love ya guys! :]

PS: Oh. Hahas. Regard us. I donno la. Whenever I'm felt brought back to the trail. I lost my way. Not because anybody dat pulled mii away. Is the conversation we always had. Afterall. This is not a need is just a wan. After so many stuff & stuff. I'm truely trapped. Especially when i felt rejected. Hahas! But i'm not okay.

2009-12-14T21:27:00.002+08:00

Uhh! I hate this upcoming festival... It was just a mini lil small small setback! Hahas! Kanna rejected. As usual. I'm dat thick skinned... Somehow. Someting is just holding mii back. We could have fall apart so easily. Uhh! Hahas... I'm just so ready for another scolding from my mum! Whoo~ kinda excited looking forward la... Just like how excited i am when ya gave mii all those lectures. Uhh... Ya know i say uhh! When i don giva a damn. I really do give! i really do. Uhh! hahas. Sians la. My friend went to the Bitch today! Fcuk! Last day of work! Somehow! I find this all planned = . =" Aiyah! Ya know i always find my life difficult... Hahas. If it's too easy i find it plain... Uhh! I gonna throw away this life. Dump my life la! Ass! Hohoho! Ehh with ya i'm perfectly imperfect...

PS: The imperfectly perfect!

2009-12-12T17:39:00.003+08:00

Hohoho! Today i went to... Erm. Queenstown to take tee. Along the way. Erm. We lost our way la. Brought the present for evean and Toktoktoktoktoktok! One day pass lo. Hahas. I might change my blog address! Uhh! Don like copy cats! Boo! Heer. Today ben went to... Erm... Donno la those charity and stuff. Den uhh. At night might go to my ah bee birthday. But kinda boring! hahas. Next time ba! Sorry bee. Next time treat ya kinder joy! Love ya dear! Hahahs! :]

PS: Hohoho. Bye bey!

2009-12-11T19:48:00.004+08:00

Ehh! Hahas! Today went to dairy farm. Bollywood and quail farm. Kinda fun. Morning tio fine. Spoil my whole day. Den still so fcuk! Ride MRT calling to my sis! Told her i need my address. She gave mii. After dat i donno why the same number i called to give my address for the fine payment. Is all different residential number. Den my mood spoil liao. Den the BT on my hand was not held properly. It was spilled all over the floor! OMG! In fact. I'm going to cry. Serious! uhh Fail sia! This kind aunty help mii to put newspaper. I was tinking if i should do sometine. But i don have newspaper! WTF? Sians. i did nothing. I'm so sore right? I know. Sians... Alight. Den alot la. Erm. Camera no battery. Knock onto pillar. Nearly fall on the grass. Drank the damn plain goat milk. Scolded some jerk. And kanna molested just a Lil by Marshal. Jiu do the art. Cloud onii... I did it for 2 hour! Fcuking stupid right? Den paste. Wah CBK! Sore loser!

PS: I can go die liao = . = "

2009-12-10T12:00:00.003+08:00

Hahas! Preaparing for work Just chatted wit ben for erm. Maybe a 20 minute plus la. Watt a nice day! Hahas! Watching the taiwan news kinda funny! They always report funny stuff about their goverment. Ya know i suddenly tot of one funny ting occur yesterday! I went to a CMS To buy herbal tea.

I walk in: Aunty i sore throat leh. Can ya get mii a bottle of herbal tea?

Aunty: Erm this is not a Chinese medicine shop. This is a provision shop.

I laugh and to ease the embarrassment of mine. I buy a packet of dried guava. Hahas! Why i so lame = . ="

PS: I'm so stupid! Hahas! = . ="

2009-12-09T21:30:00.003+08:00

Hohoho! Ben will not be viewing my blog today! Hahas! Watching channel 8 Ehh quite nice sia! Hahas. Erm. Friday will be going to dairy farm. Hahas! And one more teacher is needed. I found one Hahas! Erm. Today was another Busy day. Uhh! I love this job. $ hard earn sia. Hahas! My mum is back. She is cooking dinner for mii! But look at the time. Almost supper/ breakfast le. Hahas. Stealing fish again. Hahas ya it's vitual stuff but it still make mii happy! LOLS! Channel 8 nice sia! Another best product produce bu mediacorp! LOLS. Erm today the guys was so lols. I bathe for him Kinda obscene and Yucky! Hahas. I laugh I'm still lame Haven grow up. 2 years ago i'm still celebrating children day! Erm. I receive a letter. Donno for watt congrats mii for being the top 10% in singapore. Whoo! Aiyah! Hahas! Bye bey!

PS: Hate lying.

2009-12-08T20:33:00.002+08:00

Ehh! Went to work as usual. No idea why my phone kept vibrating! All those weird and random ppl. Hahas. Erm ya. So went teaching lo. Sore throat. Really pain sia. Den got one guy lucas. make mii shout and the whole class shut up whole day. Except. Ahem! Hahas. Damn idiotic sia. Step one in front of teachers and doing all those shit behind tinking nobody is looking. I call him so many times. he just simply ignore. I write on the board saying i'm not feeling well. Please kindly co-operate and behave. Thanks so much! But in the end still have to shout. I was so thoroughly pissed off today. Den the naughtiest guy finally "recover" and came back to enable the classroom to be in chaos. I was so fed-up today. The guy. Erm. Sitting right in front kept touching mii. I really don't like it. He kept mii so occupied. I said if he could write his name for mii. I'll draw him a doctor. My drawing is like not very nice la. but at least he would settle down. I've to feed him and clean up. Freaking lame shit ass job! Speaking to him whole day. Telling him to be guai! But nothings get in to him. 25% Doing. 25% chatting. 50% looking at him scratching and pulling mii. Looking at mii struggling and pushing! Hope this won't continue tomorrow! Ohh god! Save mii! I pray hard to... Myself. = . ="

2009-12-07T21:33:00.002+08:00

Ohh yay! Today was a restless day. Kinda tiring. Erm there's this new strange student in my work place. He love touching ppl. Not just anybody but mii! I find it like some harassment serious speaking la. But he abit slow ne la. Den those hyper-active de. He's kinda cute but... I don't like it when he tries to do funny stuff. He put my fingers into his mouth~ And tries to... So yucky! LOLS! He hugged mii! Uhh! Ya know all he guys there threaten him call police i was laughing like mad! But it works. He's so afraid of the police. I call him count to ten. Everybody call him count he nvr count before i call den he count. Den my teacher says this prove how much he likes mii. And this few days i've to teach him till the day i resign. OKAY! Den after dat. I'm suffering from sore throat my voice don't change much but. It really hurt. Xtra hurting when i speak up! And watching channel 5 now nothing do. But dat was not watching it was just a glance. Phew nothing do. Don't feel like working. I really Don't feel Like going Tomorrow. I wanna laugh when someone told mii he saved mii. = . =" From from from? From who watt when where which how? Uhh? LOLS

PS:Why the littlest and smallest and minor-est stuff we could capsize our boat? just because a lil wind not a storm la my dear! Hahs.

2009-12-05T16:43:00.002+08:00

Hee hee. Today is my spring cleaning day! Whoo. It's just MINE! My sis is so DILIGENT! She did almost NOTHING! And i feel like giving a her a big big pat on her cheek! To reward her for her hardwork! This explain her every and every ting! C'mon. Ya guys! I tends to be sarcastic am i right? Okay. I'm currently folding my clothes. And watching Vampire Dairies. I clap for myself. LOLS. No no no. I gave myself a tap on my shoulder! Hahas. Whenever i heard ppl saying this. I find it so LOLS! Ys so i'm going to continue tidying now. Kinda messy. But i feel like blogging. Okay abit more of this post den BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM I go do my stuff le. Ya so currently I'm wearing the damn spectacle. My mum says it's not urgent since I'm not gonna use it for studies! So waiting for my dad to Make mii a new bling bling one! Ya. My dad says I shouldn't wear this spec. It make our family look poor! Hahas. BYE BEY! :]

2009-12-04T19:50:00.002+08:00

Opps! Hahas. Today late dismissal from work again. As i was the last teacher and i've to see them leave. I told them loads and loads of story. They plead for it. Hahas! And i gave them chocolate. After 1 week. I'll not be teaching anymore. Kinda sad leh. Hahas. Erm ya I work full day today! I know they love my stories. Not mii hahas. And of course I spin few of the story. Adding spices to make it more interesting. I told them I don't have dat much of stories to say. But they force mii to tell stories dat i made last minute. Hahas! Okay. Erm tomorrow. I'll be I'm free. No booking! So most likely i'll be tidying my house tonight! And off to sleep. Tmr might online lo. Ya some of them are so cute to test mii stuff about Winx club. And Ben 10. And Duel master! Hahs. I donno how to spell la! I gonna be back to teach next year to. And my favourite student. Not the brat la. Say: "Teacher Vivian. Will come back hor? Hee. I'll wait for ya one la" I knock his head. Hahas. Call him do his stuff. Siao! How old onii? Siao-kia! LOLS! Bye bey! Gonna bathe and tidy up lo.

PS: I've seen ya photos le. Hahas!!!

2009-12-02T19:46:00.003+08:00

Whoo! Sians. Mummy cooking now. And of course i've wait for months again. She always cook so slow. Ohh. Ya. Gonna bathe first. But mummy wans mii to complete eblaze first. This is watt she so-called suggested. Boo. I can't even protest Whoo rebel uhh~ Chiong uhh~ Erm ya done my eblaze. Therefore this post is delayed. Ohh ya. Today. Nothing much happen la. Just brought a cake home to eat. Apparently. It's not some special or wat occasion. Just the sudden urge. Ya. I watch the last episode of. The temptation of the Wife! Hahas! I'm so hungry~ Actually is nothing do do den wanna eat onii la. Chey so sians. Hahas.

PS: Opps. I pat his shoulder. And he scream. I promise. I'll make his life. LIKE HELL! spoil brat

2009-11-30T19:51:00.004+08:00

Ya ya ya. Today the last day of the month. And i got my salery. I'm so sorry dat i could onii give my mum a mere $50. And today was another boring day. I'm so tired there. Ya and abit of pale. Well. Basically. This job is not a good one. And a lame one. Erm. Ya i just updated this blog This morning. I'm watching channel 5. It's a kinda old film. Ohh ya. And my phone was dead on my way home. The kimchi noodle i just ate. Really sucks. Boo! Hahas. I gonna sing scream sleep So freaking tired! Blah blah blah. Whoo. And today the last day of the month. I should have gotten back my $ the $ i borrowed out. Broken promise. Once is enough. Really i hate it. All the EXCUSES ya gave. = . =" OMG! Pressure? At the very least i know. I did't apply it on ya. and no linkage my dear. So lame. So boring. So shut up. $ Never give ya the opportunity to Not kill one. Opps. I belittle its strength. :] And ya too. Belittle. Ya friend.

PS: RIDICULOUS SHIT! IS THE RIGHT PHRASE.

I'm so Fed-up by his comment. On mii. Not on facebook or wattsoever. Is abit of ya. Abit due to facebook issue. I don understand. It's rightful for mii to say so. To get back watt belong to mii. I admit I'm abit too much to be so angry because of the loan. But i don like the so-called reasons ya gave mii. So why should i be critisises when i'm not in the wrong! I don get it at all. Ya ya said a lil sum is nothing to mii. but i just wanna get back watt's mine. It's one principle. Do ya get watt watt i mean? I'm going to sleep. Maybe is abit of moodswing. But i really don tink so. or depression. I donno. Anyway. Do i seem to be a person like dat in ya eyes?

2009-11-30T11:22:00.002+08:00

I hate it la. Need to pass the form to Ms. Tan by today. And it was a totally a ruin. I called Millions of people. Sorry for disturbing ya sleep. Hahas. But almost nobody can be of help. Till I called Mei ling. She said okay. I should have thought of that. She is dat helpful and free. Hahas. Thanks so much. Ohh ya. Yesterday. I ate my breakfast. But i'm still hungry. I hate my job. I need to prepare now. So freaking boring la! Chey.

PS: I hate my Phone ringtone. Boo!

2009-11-26T19:02:00.003+08:00

Today. Went to sakae sushi. Wit. JF. YC. Ah rain. Den. Play play play. Chat chat chat. Saw Edmund. And Kaiqing. Coincidentally. Mum and Ben called. After awhile no battery. Opps. Hahahs. I forgotten to start from morning. I woke up. Quite late. Den blog and stuff. Den tidy up. Mop floor. Meet them. Ah rain late. Den YC was looking at the newspaper he brought. And JF was looking around. Thinking watt should we eat later. Of course. This explains his size la. Den after the Breakfast-lunch-dinner. We walk walk. Uhh. YC went to his chalet le. Den we say about random and random stuff. Damon was rotting at home. Being a thrifty and super nanny! Looking after his brother. Erm. So when we're on the way home. Thanks for sending mii. Half-way home = . =" Hahas. I realise dat JF is so racist. a uncle behind him. Open his arm. Signaling to mii he wanted to hug JF = . = ". Rain is just the opposite. He love the bangla behind him. He lean close to him. Trying his best to seduce him. I really wanna puke. Due to the bangla smell. Due to rain behaviour. Due to the amount of food i really ate. Lastly. Due to JF face. :] Hahahas. But i control it. I nvr puke. Thanks to myself! I prayed hard to my god! i'm a free-thinker. i onii tink of myself! But i'm Not free :]

PS: No more PS. I've no comment. Regard everyting. Anymore. Because we're not constant. Because. It's not up to mii. When i'm trying hard to get use to the easy life. Ya easily took mii back to the hard life. It's just like: One day. We're taking MRT. Ya claim dat ya help mii up when i fall into the railway track. But. Ya're the one dat pushed mii down. Ya're the one dat make mii fall. It's rightful dat ya should help mii up. REPHRASE* Ya shouldn't even pushed mii in the first place. For my own safety. I was standing behind the yellow line!

2009-11-25T20:32:00.003+08:00

Today 3rd day of work. I tend to have lot's of job lobang. But... I can't go leh. Aiyah even the salary higher also can't go. Hahas. Love ya guys for trying to intro jobs. But i can't go Sorry. Today a guy cry. A guy dat try to praise mii. Saying i'm pretty and stuff. But i don't go for dat. I say: Pretty don need do work meh? Hahas. I call his to stand when he crap. I call him to squat when he don't understand. And i reward him of no tea break when he forgotten how to read the words i just read. He nearly cry. In fact. He cried. Hahas. I confiscate his eraser. Another gal. Peek into my skirt. No no no. It's not call peek. He look right into my skirt. Her whole head is inside my skirt. I learnt my lesson. Nvr wipe the table when ya're wearing a skirt. Okay. Den I gave them kinderjoy. A extremely rich ass. Say ehh why ya buy so cheap one uhh! I was like = . =" Watt do ya expect? Do ya wan my bank password for being obedient? Dat's just a little token. Serious speaking buying 3 kinder joy for them on the 3rd day of work I tink is someting already. Btw. I don have bank account. I just wanna act as if. I'm some loaded grown-ups. Hahas. And when i joke wit them they don respect mii at all especially during their break time. Force mii to play wit them. even when i go toilet they knock the door. And when i went to the kitchen to sip a lil bot of liquid. They ask: Where is teacher Vivian! Is she going to come next year? Watt the hell la. I'm not there for pleasure or etc lo. I'm there to teach but when I'm serious. I say i don allow nonsense. I mean no nonsense. And they'll shut up. Or when i resort to pampered and rewards they'll get it.
Him: Teacher. Whole world hor. Onii ya scold mii and punish mii like dat
Mii: Don't make it sound so bad. It's just some reward. Ya don have to thank mii. But before ya do ya work. Can ya tell teacher Vivian why ya say so?
Him: Because when i tok to myself. Teacher Just call mii to stand. Or watt.
Mii: I do dat too. Okay. Zip it up. do ya work now.
Him: No lo. Ya call mii to tok to myself during break time leh.
Him: *Gonna cry*
Mii:*Control laughter.*
Then the whole class Chaotic. Say where got teacher like dat one la! I wan complain!
Mii: Wan complain right? Complain to mii lo.
Another Him: Ya step on my hand yesterday! Hor "Her" Ya saw right?
Her: Ya. But teacher got say sorry.
Mii: Enough enough. I did't did dat on purpose okay! Sorry.
Him: Cannot la. Blah blah blah*
Mii: Go to the kitchen and stand now. Don come back till i told ya. Bring ya work too. Btw if ya fail the paper. Tomorrow no break for ya! Understand?
*Crowd whisper* : See la. Still dare complain to teacher Vivian. Wah if we did. We'll be the one at the kitchen now.
Mii:"Ahem"
Hahahs. I very bad right? I'm never good! Uhh!

PS: Today. I wanna say Sorry. To ya. For the unexpected. Or maybe expected. I donno. Just wanna say. Not ready. Ya fear not. Ben not gonna view my blog one. Nowadays. He not dat free. And even if he do. He won't know. My words are in White colour. Sorry. Erm as for the damn... Okay... I know out of good intention. But really abit bad la. It's quite bad la. Okay. Very bad. Rephrase for ya: Watt the hell! Why go scold! Oii! Out of good intention la. I know I know. Still Thanks to both of ya. For standing and considering at my position. Thanks ya guys so much! Afterall. I'm still left wit guilt. Sorry! Sorry. sorry... A few days of guilt in trade of a few more months of waiting. Worthwhile.

Uhh! I Still couldn't get over ya. Crying don help. I just wanna sleep. Bringing the big bear. To my dream land. Hoping... Dat i could speak to it. Like how i always did. When ya're not wit mii.

2009-11-24T20:01:00.003+08:00

Today... Erm ya let not start wit today. Erm. Lalalalalalalalalalalala. Okay first i wanna erm. Be ashamed of myself i suppose. I boom the student cause they ask mii strange and funny question! Okay sorry. Hahas. To prove my sincerity. I decided to. Confiscate one of ya pencil and dump it in dat bin. And when ya wanna pick it up i call ya to stand up. No sitting. Dat's is a reward. And i did dat this afternoon. OMG! Watt with dat pencil? There's a young teacher right in front of ya and could ya please at least look abit at her. And not stare at ya stupid pencil. Hahas. Okay. De i brought Kinder joy for few of the best student. Hahas! There's still a year time to the expiry date. So fear not. Erm ya today. I took the primary 6 class. And they praise mii. Of course. I DESERVE IT! Hahahs. my second day of work and my first time taking a class. I did a lil bit of intro. Saying: " Hello guys. I'm so-called ya relieve teacher. And please greet mii as Teacher Vivian. [Phew! It's better den Miss.Toh or any other name] Of course i expect introduction from every single one of ya too." And i smiled. Relieve teacher... Is so relieve. Hahahs! Den i'm so happy dat my English don really sucks dat much. Okay it do in fact. But i nvr add singlish hor! Den Pri 6 so polite. Den I'm like nothing do lo. So guai they all. I'm still afraid dat i can't do a good job! Den after dat. Left mii taking care of 2 class. OHH! I gonna faint la. Den i teach the smart guy till i pek chek! Hahas! So pattern la. I got so fed up! And i ignore him till he finish. Hahas. Den he write alot alot of rubbish on the paper. Uhh! Tmr i donwan teach him le. Den the pri 1 English was like... Guessing game. I have to say the word in Chinese... And he translate into English. Or i draw = . =" Hahahs.

PS:How i wish the Ice cream ya mention is the one i gave ya. Hahas. My hope is fat! Ya must be really busy. WTH! If i could i'll remember ya. But I don wanna miss ya. STILL I'M NOT IN THE POSITION TO DECIDE. Happy Life! to both of us... It's like... Onii a few day... And seems like how many decades. Uhh. Forgotten everyting lo! Don even remember. Those laugh we had together!

2009-11-23T20:08:00.003+08:00

Today went to the childcare. I nearly beat up one of the childeren. Okay i admit. It's a few of them. Everything seems so fine. Till those TING! Touvh my orange colour pencil. I was like screaming all the way. And i'm glad hey did't touch my bag! Erm ya. If it's for the amount of $ i'll quit now. But if it's for the sake of my Words. I'll work there! Hee. Ya so of course the first day. I'm late. Thanks everybody dat try to wake mii up. No idea why i don even wake up why my phone ring. Whoo. I can't believe i got over it so fast. Ehh. So ya I have quite a few unsure jobs available. We're so happy. I'm busy wit my work. And ya're there eating ya Big Big candy floss. Ain't we happy? Happier den before? Hahas.

PS: In fact. I really miss ya. When ya tok to mii in MSN just now. My body feel so heavy... Uhh! I really can't... But i have to... Listening to the song. Uhh. uhh uhh uhh uhh. It's Fcuking painful to... Feign as if none of those shit ever happened. Actually it's chio chio memories not shit. Is memories dat nobody could ever replace. Look at the ice cream I've brought. For us. Look at the bear ya've brought for mii. So hard to even bare wit those.

If ya haven't made the longing hole the rooftop. I would't have know the loniless left on the pillow. Ya made the dream and i indulge in dat fantasy. But i'm still left wandering in dat dream. The madness and fun we had. The first unforgettable song we sang. I was faking tinking ya're beside mii.The first promise is riduculousely beautiful. Ya taught mii the kindness of love and ya taught mii the cruelty of hate. The naive wish we made to the first splendid shooting star. Ya brought mii to tour in heaven The once in a lifetime journey is so damn great. Ya taught mii the tacnic of loving ya. But ya forgotten to impart the skill of forgetting. The shine of ya smile transform into the shine of my tears. Ya told mii to forget those dat have the ability to prolong misery. Watt ya taught mii allowed the presence of bitterness. And the thought of ya to survive. All i'm hoping is ya're doing well.

This song damn touching right? It's a chinese song. Okay la edited a bit. Cause hard to translate la.

2009-11-23T00:01:00.002+08:00

Ohh ya. Today I went to Jonas Birthday party. I've no idea why ya guys are so interested in my sis. LOLS! Erm ya happy birthday. i MET NEW FRIENDS TODAY AND... Ya add mii in facebook. LOLS. We play catching bowling pool And cards and etc etc. Well I apologise for not getting a present. And I did't eat much cause i don really have the appetite. SORRY GUYS. Plus I'm late! OMG. Hahas. And Add mii in facebook! Whoo!

PS: It's was so fun today. Happy birthday to Jonas.

Although i'm having fun. But i still Miss ya. I had a hard time Covering all my damn EMO-tion. I'll be fine. Hahas.
And My mum is crazy. Uhh. I'm already so into depression. And all she do is... Forget it. Off to cry now! Damn it!

2009-11-22T14:07:00.003+08:00

It'll be fine after sometime. I donno watt is happening. But i'll be fine. Ya don need to worry. Hahas! I just need time to get over. And infront of my friends. I can't cry. I don wanna history to repeat and repeat and repeat. No more backstabbing from whoever. I used to be crying to him or her or them. But it's okay le. Looking at all those time... And of course because of ya. I 've seen the reality of her once and it's enough. I'm quite at a lost. Because she'll always come to my mind. BUT SHUT UP! I DON NEED SOMEONE LIKE. HER. Anymore. Hahas. Remember i'm strong and tough and man and I don cry...

PS: If ya're waiting there. I'll be there.

2009-11-21T13:59:00.005+08:00

I'm sorry. I really can't wait. As i said. It hurts now. But if delay further. It'll be more painful today is our. 1 year 1 month and 2 weeks and 2 days. Anniversary. I know it hurts. But it don matter. Ya'll find someone better. Ya said ya have prolong this relationship. I did too. So after all we still can't get along. Whenever i look back. Watt brought us here. It's all lame stuff. I'll miss ya. And the bear. The ice cream i'll put it away. The photo. Ya everything. i'll put it away. The last goodbye. It's not good. Therefore I won't wanna hold to it. I can't even name out watt are those bad memories we had. There're alot. The private blog. Please cancel my name away. Cause the thought of it i'll start to cry. If i look at it. I won't bare to let ya go. Instead. It ya dat have let mii go now. In this relationship. I'm always wrong. Pestering for ya company. Misunderstanding. No more of the lousy. Jealousy. I've no more right to jealous. There's alot i wanna complain to my blog. But once i sat down here. my anger is really defeated by my flowing tears. Feeling so tired. Ya gave mii a chance yesterday. But. The more chances ya give. The more i can't let ya go. I donno who to turn to last night. As usual. Because wattever happens. I don turn to ya. So watt if we love each other. We can't get along. It's my mistake. I'm sorry. If ya tink ya're hurt to let mii go. I'm sorry. But i'm also hurt to see ya go. It hurt... Alot alot. It's so pain inside. No more of emptiness inside my heart. It's so heavy. Heavy wit bitter tears. I apologise. i rally can't wait. I know ya can't promise anyting. I said i donwan anymore. based on ya understanding towards mii. We know i wan. How much i wan dat damn fcuking ting! My dad was like. I buy for ya... I donwan. He could have buy how many times of ya. But do ya know the difference. Ya. Maybe to ya i'm materialistic. But... No point explaining now. It's meaningless for mii to have it. I donno watt can i get from ya. Anymore. I can't wait. i don wanna wait. Ya said ya really love mii. I said dat too. But ya let mii wait. And i can't wait. So much and so much. And i've to be so happy in front of my family. I don wanna say anymore. I need to a few more days. or weeks or month. I donno. Unless ya can give mii a reason. Dat i don tink is an excuse. But i don tink Ya would even... Know my i've post.

PS: I still love ya.

2009-11-21T00:12:00.003+08:00

Wattever wattever wattever! Watt could i say? to mii it all excuses! Don tell mii ya don tink so! it's simply excuses. Everybody will tink so if they knew it. It was't the matter or comment or person dat I'm angry. It's the reaction. Watt's wrong? It's just seems so wrong! everyting! Wattever by all mean. Be alone as watt ya always wan! Be independent as watt ya always wan! watt i always wan is so simple. Is so damn simple but to ya it's like WOW! And forget it. Once and for all. Stop all those dilly dally. I'm tired. I wanna sleep and forget everyting. Ya presence. The present. The past. And not more of our damn future. So much of enough! Watt the hell Is wrong wit us? I'm always so damn fcuking idiotic! After conflicts I'm always landiong on dat bed crying and tinking watt have brought us here? Why? Why? Why? Why can't we just communicate properly. Like everybody does wit mii. And everybody does wit ya. I donno how we make it in the past. Damn it! Ya won! I'm so tired! Of everyting about ya. Sleep or do ya project or wattever. But i would like to say. I can't sleep. I just wanna cry. Till dawn.

PS: Ya know i HATE it when ya hang my phone! Ya know i always hate it when ya does dat!

Still being so damn considerate. Watt i'm left here is the kind tears. Being wit mii all along. Accompanying mii. Crying like a idiotic bitch!

I'm just so freaking tired.

2009-11-19T20:33:00.002+08:00

I spent a long time relinking and link ya guys. So do relink and link mii. Hahas. Erm ya today. I woke up at 3 plus i tink. Den i msn wit those guys. = . = " Random stuff. Erm den i go dabao. No life. Den I'm also deleting those facebook picture cause it's too ugly to exist in my profile! hahas. Ya. And i wanna claim someting. Here. Just right here. I don care if ya have the $ or not. Firstly i believe we're not dat close. Friend maybe. Best friend. Most likely no. So if ya promise mii someting. Ya Fcuking well do it. If not no compromise. And i hate to lend people $. Unless i'm prepared dat i don need the $. Secondly. I lend ya $ when ya need it. So could ya please return when i need it. Don say watt ya've gone to malaysia. Or even ya're away. From life. This is ridiculous. Now Trust are to be earn. Now i donno how long ya're going to earn for my this piece of trust. Ya should always know how i talk by now. I onii speak up when i can't tolerate the behaviour. When i tink i should do someting and not someting must be done. Okay? I heck care ya. Unless ya can hoax or persuade mii or wattever mii into believing dat ya did't lied to mii. Unless ya could do so. I really can't stand excuses and all those ya-tink-it-sounds-good reason. If not stop it my dear. I'm not a fool. I'm not like anybody ya ever borrow $ from. They don dare to say. Or they don wanna back the $ for the exchange of friendship. Hey. Ya're exchanging the $ for our friendship and not mii who tried to borrow ya the sum when ya need. So lets be fair. Although it's not a big sum. Uhh. Another to comment on is. Dat idiot. Hahas. Last time i thought ya wan galfriend donwan brother. Now ya don even wan ya galfriend. Watt wrong wit ya sia? Friend are for when somting happen and ya could speak to. Not when someting happen and ya shut up. Tell us the reason. Not onii mii. Everybody is tired of guessing. At first. I tot i will be the last to give up. Now i don tink so. Cause i'm going to give up. I don give a damn lo. Ya're not dat important and watt so ever. When we go out kindly don give lame excuses. When ya wanna break wit her. The reason is so shit. Mind about ya reputation. Watt's people gonna tink about ya? They'll tink ya're MAD. Why can't ya just say watt happen? Watt exactly happen Just tell us. We won't laugh or tease or critisis or beat ya up or watever. We just wanna know. Idiot.

PS: For ya information. These are not call friends.

If these is the attitude ya're giving. Stay away from mii. Nobody will ever need ya.

I'll still forgive ya. If ya tink i deserve a sorry.

Idiot.

2009-11-18T20:55:00.004+08:00

Finally i understand why i always wanna reject ya comfort and accompany. Cause i don wanna be Pampered. And i don like to be defeated. In anyting. In everyting. I don like to be rejected. By whoever. Or by wattever. Whether ya trust mii or ya're trusting mii. I don mind. Actually i do. But watt can i do? Simply. Nothing. Sometimes I know i'm stupid. Most of the time I'm never smart. I know i tyco! I know i'm always a tyco-kia. Or instead I onii have dat piece of luck. But not effort. Everybody tinks dat way. Nope. Not everybody agree wit my opinion of them. They tinks I don't even have dat luck.

PS: Maybe ya're angry. But remember. I'm also unhappy.

2009-11-18T17:25:00.005+08:00

Whoo. The camp was fun and within one day. I made friends with those seniors. BEST seniors. = . =" First day. Bonding was a success. Erm den the damn night walk make mii nearly cry. But for the sake of my face and Brave award. I die die tolerate. I got the 2nd for archery. The tresure haunt fun la. Dat's how i got all seniors to be my BEST seniors. The water bags. Was canceled. But I still manage to sneak into the guys toilet and play. Whoo! it was so fun. Den movie marathon. I was busy protecting those seniors.little bit scream. Aiyah i say i there liao ma. why ya all scared? Den last night we taunt. I drink alot alot of water cause i lose. Den i vomit until siao. Hate damon demon! hahas. Den after camp. We go play water bomb so fun. Yay! Seniors. Own mii one photo! Whoo! BTW. I forgotten to thanks Seniors for the goodies. Hahahs. And my sister brought back the bag i just brought! Whoo i love her!

PS:I donno watt's dat Feeling but I lost almost all my passion. Don say ya did spare a thought for mii. More and more i feel dat i don deserve it. Because. I'M REALLY ALL DRAIN. My heart is so hollow. I need someone dat ask mii how am . And wait for my answer.

2009-11-13T20:34:00.003+08:00

I used to hate dreaming. Now "dreaming" Hates mii too. So I'm left with eyebags. I hope eyebags hate mii too. I'm tinking if i'm walking on the street. Will anybody point at mii and tot they've seen a ghost that can walk under the sun. Whoo~ Today is my 1 year 1 month 1 week 1 day anniversary. I went to SP today. The water tingy and alot tings happen. I lost my way. I almost lost the test tube. I nearly fell down in the rain. Alot alot la. Den the stupid dong xun act one keep saying mii. Ya la ya la. I stupid la. Boo! Hahahs. Den when i'm on my home i start to nose bleed. It've been so long since i nose bleed. Today the friday 13th hahas.

2009-11-11T19:35:00.004+08:00

Uhh. Went to appeal la. Erm I donno did i success not... Den. Yesterday

Vivian.

Lee Jiaming.

Ong Jiaming.

Joseph Hoo.

Tai Liang yee.

Marvin Wong.

Went to Sakae Sushi! Vivian the generous one treated them. But sadly. Edmund and Adam was not present. And i have to clarify! The damn sum of $ is not given by the school = . = " Hahahs. Anyway we still have fun. Jiaming was a disgrace He spilled green tea and dispose sushi under the seats. Joseph was cursing him all the way. Ong was in a rush but he still went to the gathering. Liang yee is criticising the gals behind us. Criticising their appearance sarcastically. Marvin was looking out for those eggy sushi. And Vivian was the BEST! She Giggle and not laugh. She whisper and not shout. Not like them so disgrace. In total. I spent a sum of $. Onii regrets is those. MTFK. Idiots. That did't come. If i see both of them. I hope i'll be calm enough to not beat them up. So damn angry and disappointed. And i attended the leadership training! I gave everyone a warm and sweet "GOODMORNING" greeting. We're preparing the CCA orientation. Tmr. I've to apologise to the seniors. For pang seh-ing them. I'm going to west coast tmr. YAY! Friday going to Singapore poly. Hua hua hua hua hua. As for my darling uhh. I donno he doing watt la. So busy la. Love ya nah. Hee. Wah wah wah. I so happy la. " Love ya!! MUACK..Sorry for being so busy! " He wrote at on my wall. Whoo~. I love ya. Bye bey. :]

PS:

We Will be brothers forever. I promise. :] And my Dar. I love all of ya! Hahas.

2009-11-07T19:40:00.002+08:00

Hahahs. Next year bah. Anyway this kinda ting is just unnecessary stuff. Hhahs. 2 year 2 month 2 weeks 2 day more meaningful. Hee... Wait wait wait... Waiting waiting...

PS: Love ya... Sorry...

2009-11-07T19:10:00.003+08:00

Ehh ehh ehh. It've been sometime since I ever post. Well I got a job. It's being a tuition teacher and the salery is confidential. I must keep my job and my venue a secret like our MELISSA Lols. I wanna laugh today my cute cousin called to ask mii give her those extra erm mac tingy. I almost gave up eating mac for the sake of the monopoly tingy. Cause... I know i nvr gonna win de. Hahahs. I went back to school on Tuesday to change my CCA tingy. Wednesday mii and amecan went to Kuse island... Hee. Erm for more of those happening please view our dear amecan blog. Hahhas. And my job. Let say someting about my job. I'm going to be a Teacher at WOODLANDS area den my job is to call those kids to bathe and tutor them on things dat i know and they donno. Den arrange them properly i mean like keep those kids in order la. erm den if they go excursion i also can go yay I gonna eat there and of course. To be more professional i intend to not msg or chat on the phone but my working duration is only from 9.30 to 2.30 den i go play liao. Okay okay. Erm today i went to sentosa. And the attendance surprise mii. There was onii a few of us. I don understand why our class so not enthu de. = . =" Next time we go wild wild wet la. But we have fun in the toy r us. Hahahs. And i wanna apologise to my dear boyfriend. I disgrace him I fell down in the toy r us shop. Uhh. So dumb... hahahs. Jiaming etc kept slacking at stagmont. I find it boring so i don't really join la. Erm. I focus on my work la this 2 month... Uhh. Friday ben come leh. Erm it's our... 1 year 1 month 1 day anniversary. On next friday it'll be our 1 year 1 month 1 week 1 day anniversary le... Haahhahahahhahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahaahhahahahahahahas Yay I wan someting So happy liao

PS: Love ya la. I yearn for dat so long le.

2009-10-31T11:45:00.003+08:00

Yesterday achiever's tea. Receive alot of "congrats" and "unbelievable" And a little of disappointment. I could have dne better. I've seen both the photos of my class and both CCA le. Erm I look quite ugly in all of the photos. = . =" AND FCUK CARE CCA LA. I went to visit I'm no longer in red cross le lo. Still put there and my overall is onii 2 marks. Walao ehh. Anyway in advance i tols ms.tan I wanna be back a librarian le lo. Waste time sia. Eveyday report den get this kinda points. As if i nvr participate lo. Monday i going back to school to get the form and imform the GO about the error. if i have to spent whole year attending pointless CCA den i might as well use the time to study better and get better L1B2 or L1B4 wattever la. bloody waste time lo. Aiyah. I just don't expect dat lo. ERRRRRR~ Damn it la. Back to receiving those certificates and achievements watt i heard most is. I can't believe is VIVIAN. I feel like slapping them. watt can't believe.!!!!!!!!!!!!! !)@!($#@#$%^&*(*&%$#@#$^&*(*#@#$%( no la actually i don believe too. But due to this result. My mu wants mii to continue staying back in the library which is no different being a librarian dat's why ms.tan jitao approved. Eso dat's all lo. Hahhs. BYe ppls.

2009-10-29T20:21:00.002+08:00

Well it's a definate dat i'll be promoted. Of course i'm. Happy... I tink. Cause suddenly having the urge to not go. But dat feeling is onii a instance. I don dare to tink too much of dat i don dare to even give up this chance i'm afaid it'll not come again. Friday achiever's tea and maybe going to the hallowen party. Saturday i'll accompany my grandma to bai bai. Sunday go find my dear. He's going to work and i go there do nothing to see those cute children lo. Monday i'm sill considering if i should go. Cause those bunch idiot's are being so inconsiderate. And so stupid. Before monday better make my anger vanish hor. Den tuesday going night safari or watt la donno them. Wednesday go kusu island wit amecan etc la. Den will update furthur lo. Aiyah. Nothing to do leh. Bye bey o sleep and wait for him to call lo.

2009-10-26T20:27:00.003+08:00

Hey yo today went swimming wit... Erm Edmund Joseph lee Jiaming Adam Marvin Kyle Javier. So damn fun. Hahahs. Den i went into the sauna there they say watt steam room so fun lo. But i abit of lonely. LOLS. Erm dat's all le ba. Hahahs. Donno why one whole day so fun but nth to post. Den tmr will be the knowing of promoting. Mii and Joseph will take note de. If i could promote my mum will give mii a 100 dollar to celebrate. Wit my friends den give mii others remaining $ i forgotten how much. Anyway it's still not a definite.

2009-10-25T14:30:00.003+08:00

Hey yo. Was so happy yesterday. Wearing a stupid heel which make mii look taller but i like the image of it but i hate the staring of others. They must be tinking why am i so tall. Erm ya went to Tru to see the maze done by ben and co. Is like quite okay la. But i suggest they should make it taller. Hahahs. JKJK. Den got kids ask question like Is ya skin smooth? why ya so tall? why ya pants so short? ya how old? are ya an adult? i did'nt see ya before who are ya? how long ya work here? watt ya like? and the most popular question is. Is the haunted house spooky? Hahhs. they're so damn cute and i'm determine to get the job when i'm old enough. Den a kiddo say she could play violin. Erm another ting is. And i can't stand ppl keep staring at mii. I feel like stepping on them. Tall ppl look so ugly. My grandma neighbor. The bubble tea auntie. The promoter. The passenger. Wattever. Keep asking the same question.We went to mac. I mean mii and ben. And by that time finally i meet up Faeza Nash and the boyfriend. we eat together. But on different table. And there's a so damn cool tickets like tingy. Anybody donwan give mii!!! I'm so DESPERATE for it. Den i dare Ben to snatch the ticket from the next table as those two ladies did'nt notice den both of us run i doubt they'll make an effort to snatch back those few tingy la. He die die donwan. So not fun. He ask for it and say my galfriend wants it. = . =". He's SO NICE to even mention my name i no face liao lo. I was like covering my face. We should snatch and run lo. Like dat more fun ma. Aiyah. I should snatch and run alone. See how he going to handle the situation. LOLS. He should say sorry and walk off or watt. He should run wit mii. Hahhas.

PS: To prove ya love. Next time snatch infront of mii. For mii. Steady?

Still.

LOVE YA.

But if ya did. It'll be more.

2009-10-22T19:10:00.003+08:00

Okay. Erm. I'm listening to 933. So damn funny. They ask watt is the most disgusting food the audience ever ate. One person called and say: I hate beansprout. When i'm still a toddler i ate a raw beansprout and it stuck between my teeth i was young and i did't know watt is a toothpick. It was there for the WHOLE day. Raw beansprout is bitter and smelly. And i hate it.

LAUGH*

Erm for mii i hate smelly tofu. I hate it. The smell or even thought of it. Especially when i'm full i can vomit on the spot. Other den that i love other food la. i don dare to eat pig organ and some kinda seafood that stink. LOLS. The song now is.

Directly translate.

"i really think that... "

I really think that my doubled love.

Our future that determines don matter.

But ya hesitate and ya said LOVE that is unstable.

Could tell mii how should love be arranged.

Next question.

How would ya handle ya relationship emotion etc. when ya found out that ya lover is always lying and hiding everyting.

Hahas. I would... Depend on watt he do :] I'm not dat unreasonable right?

Serious speaking i find my answer so fake. I'm dat unreasonable. And violent. Most likely i tink I'll just kill him before he could explain. And when he's dead i cry and tink why I killed him. I should cry and tink why did'nt i listen to his explaination?reason. But when I'm angry

TO MII EVERYTING HE SAY IS SIMPLY EXCUSES.

HE SHOULD REALLY KNOW.

CAUSE HE'LL BE DAMN INNOCENT AND SO LIKE A VICTIM.
HE IS A VICTIM.

AM I RIGHT MY DEAR?

I"M SMILING. :]

COULD YA PLEASE SAY "NO"

TO EVERYBODY. THEY WON'T KNOW YA'RE LYING.

PS: I'VE NOTING TO WORRY.

Reason: Cause my boyfriend say so.

And: I love HIM.

2009-10-21T20:25:00.002+08:00

Erm today was to report and Going through Our exams paper. My art grades really Sucks. Uhh. I can't believe I actually scored a 59. I was spending like years to finish it and we tink the highest in the class is 62. Jiaming. I really have to say or i'll feel disappointed wit myself. His drawing is totally cray but he got 51 I tink. Little effort Little gain. Huge effort Little gain. I might as well do rubish for my Prep i even colour lo. I really wanna say. FCUK. Okay it's a history now. Mdm fazilah is like hinting to mii. "ARE YA GOING TO JOIN MY ART COURSE NEXT YEAR" and i hint back "NOPE" And I miss Ms.Tay. If ya happen to see my post. I won't wanna say "Look Ms.Tay ya saved mii. Thanks so much!" This is too fake. I just wanna tell Ms.Tay. See Jiaming and Adam hor. Look at their grades and when ya're not here they went to Create trouble and Riots outside 2/7 But I already beat them up. I know guys hate violence that apply to every single normal guy. But not to my "special" and "unique" Friends. They Love beating. This show how close we're watt hor? So don need worry about them and tinking why is my galfriend so violent. I won't beat ya. Unless ya beat mii la = . =" Cause ya're a norm Guy. They're not. Everyday they must hear my scream and shout. Saying ya spoil my... MY ERASER. Don use my orange colour pencil. Don disturb the... Everyday I'll say SHUT UP IDIOTS at least once.

"She's standing on the grass. We need LAND!" This is tiring but i promise i really enjoy it. Not the screaming part is the fun wit ya guys. Holiday is coming. I'll miss every single erm. Classmate schoolmate. Thanks so much. For being my BROTHERS FOR LIFE. LOLS.

Lastly we should really play during holiday. And if DOTA is lack of players den i go learn play den join lo. But i'm lazy to set up one team. Waste time la. Hahs.

PS: I know. Someone in the group will say "NO! not brothers for life." I know ya ppl don mean it. Serious really. Or that particular guys is asking for beating. Thanks Guys. Hahas.

Hi i'm a big nose woman

2009-10-20T19:09:00.002+08:00

Hi , i would like to annouce that i've a big nose , the size of a cucumber . Hi , i often hang out with boys as i think i look cool as a guy . Kim rocker ; is my best friend , i rock everyday together with her. People call me nose rocker and my best buddy "kim rocker" . They sae my nose is big but i find it amazing , i can poke all my five fingers into just one of the hole in my nose. isn't it cool .
My nick name is bian cai , as they think i'm chen sui bian , chen sui bian is my idol . i inspire him as he love cheating money . just like kyle . jk . thats all , and one more thing , everytime i shit , i would cry

2009-10-20T16:16:00.002+08:00

Cafe world. Den i decide to go swimming and found out my layers of fats so now i decided i will take breakfast and lunch No more Dinner !!! Till i'm back to my shape. Hahas. erm i'll not announce my results yet cause i find it like a disgrace. So i'm waiting for my remaining results. Hoping for miracle. I'm going to swim now.

PS: VIVIAN SWIM= PLAY WATER.

2009-10-20T04:49:00.003+08:00

Uhh i'm mad. I'm now playing cafe world. So crazy over it and currently tinking of a solution to serve my soup or pie or wattever in 2hour and 30 minutes. The time will be 7.20 I'm tinking of using Kaiqing internet. I mean those in her phone one. I can't sleep. Someting is running through my mind. Tinking of him 50% TOO HOT 20% Cafe world 25% do we have P.E today? 5% So damn hot after the game i gonna have another bathe when my hair dries up. I saw Ben's mum still awake LOLS. ADDICTED!!! Everybody play cafe world please publicize the game cause it's just so L-O-L-S I have 10 neighbour now and the ranking of mine is being the last 2 Hahas. Hey ppl. it's so damn fun. By waking up in the night due to global warming. But the thought of playing cafe world. This is Vivian. The so lame one. The gal who play games for a few days den she see it lame. Ya see the charisma and attraction of this CHIO game? Okay although i onii play for 1 day too. Unless i'm bored of it. I'll shut up this instance. Anyway. I'm waiting for it to be cooked. Bye bye

2009-10-19T11:25:00.002+08:00

Today very boring la. Den hor chatting wit Shirley. Ben went to school... Uhh. My holiday coming den his end le. Today wanna go Sentosa de. Den they say wanna go movie den is like so boring. Den i don tink my mum allow got alot of house chores. DaDaDaDaDaDa~ Sians. Erm. I very boring leh. Finding tings to play. Listening to shirley love story. A not romantic romance. Erm. Dats all for now. Anymore update will most likely be tonight.

PS: Love is about realistic not romance.

2009-10-16T09:32:00.004+08:00

Hahas. Erm it's like so long i did't post... I completed all EOY exam lo. Den i gonna meet up ben later. Hee. Den gonna visit PoPo. I gonna bring my grandparents over when i tidy until chio chio. Den hor i buy hello panda for my little baby cousin. She so cute so long nvr visit her. She must've miss mii alot alot. Hor baby? hahas. Den outside is raining until so shiok. Sorry Olivia. Yanting. An yu. Jiaming. Adam. I can't movie wit ya ppl. Den sorry Shuhui and co. I pang seh ya ppl. Den pai seh Joel. Can't celebrate ya Graduation day. And lastly to Chiew tong Happy birthday. A pity i can't attend ya ppl gathering at the Zoo. Den sorry everybody. Next time bah. So today i manage to go to 2 meeting my grandparents house and meet up Ben. Sorry guys. Ya also know la. it used to be first come first serve but now abit of change liao watt. Sorry for the really inconvenient and i sincerely apologies. I hope to receive ya forgiveness. Please don scold mii cause ya know. we believe in karma. Den i tink he Saturday Kbox tingy is canceled. As our dear Shirley and Kaiqing is having sore throat which i tink is the process of puberty. Break Voice. So no choice la. I hope they wake up le so we can discuss the attendants. Anyway. those who ain't that co-operative. Please really do this once. Don be like those Ong and Joseph who're always the spoiler. IDIOTS RIGHT? and i believe everybody agree. As for the guys ya all plan den call mii go all like wan-donwan. How am i suppose to plan? Hahs. Happy Short holidays. Guys.

2009-10-10T10:43:00.004+08:00

So long nvr post lo. hee. exam was like not so good as i expected. Ben was sick. Later i'm going to meet friends at sembawang. yesterday. I went to woodland to have my dinner. On the way i saw Jiaming Javier Amos. Etc. So fun la. They abit disgrace in the MRT and public nuisance. Erm so hope my Baby will recover soon. And i'm so gracious understanding and pretty to forgive Adam since he apologise to mii den nvm la. Hhahhs. I abit siao liao. erm ya so my pkt$ finish lo. Yay! i'm waiting for death. $300 confiscate $100. Left $200 den i buy bags around $50 den I spoil my spec also around $50 den I lost all my painting stuff. Need to buy $50 and above one la. Den i wanna but one more calculator. And i can't resist. I went to SaSa to but mask and etc la. Almost empty le... Hya... i Hate myself for spending ya i hate myself... Lols but nvm la. few more days jiu next month lo. Is it few more days? aiyah id onno la. anyway i'm now going to sembawang to do my art shop for those painting colour pencil stuff dats all. Today will be the last day dat my wallet will weigh... Hahahs.

PS: Take care. Hope ya recover. I Love ya.

2009-10-04T13:54:00.003+08:00

I did'nt post for quite sometime. And One year past. Alot of tings happen. We study. We quarrel. Everyting. We went to celebrate yesterday. Actually it's a ruin. Den he attended someting and We went to KBox. Intended to go wild wild wet but can't den also wanna go Escape but it rain. still it was fun but we came to conclusion that 2 person going to KBox is not dat fun compare to a group la. Hahs. We ate Kfc for dinner. Xue jing and ben is like those just release hungry ghost. The order a family feast. 8 piece chicken + 4 piece of small drumstick + 2 coleslaw + 4 pepsi + 1 Popcorn chicken. Ben Must have suffer of hunger for donno how many months. Da ge face is like so red and from his expression i could really felt dat he can vomit anytime. I pity him la. Den beside us got one group of idiots. Using some poor quality speaker phone. On the music so loud as if he own KFC. He also brought in a packet of green tea and left the packet at the corner of his seat when he left. He kept staring at us and I feel like slapping him and slam his phone. Public nuisance. Den after dat we went home. Thanks ben for accompanying mii and thanks xuejing for ya transportation fee. Sorry for being late too.

PS: He's tired and he's Fat. Hahs. But he walk for us. Thanks Da ge.

2009-09-28T18:38:00.003+08:00

Exam exam. Ha. Is kinda disappointed. I kept saying it'll be a ruin... But in my heart. I know tings won't turn out as usual. But it. Did. Somehow. It's always re-arranged. Always and always... I can't blame ya. Again. And i hate to blame myself. When i know exactly is not my fault. Thanks for accompanying mii to school this morning wit xue jing anyway. Don wanna this post to sound so emo... I don wanna wish for anyting anymore. Maybe tings are going too fast. And I'm looking too forward. Expecting so much. Recieving let down so much. Uhh. Hope we'll be fine. Or I'll be fine.

PS:Again As Usual. Usual As Again.

Same Comment. Same feeling. Same Expectation. Same Disappointment.

2009-09-27T19:14:00.002+08:00

hahs. Today I did nothing. Okay actually I did someting la. I study and clean up my house. Ben gonna come and we're celebrating our... Hahs. Dat time post la. If not noting post la. Aiyah actually i wanna dabao one. My mum insisted dat i should eat rice. Walao. White rice and vegatable. I ahte it la. So plain meh? I rather cook my Solid maggi lo. Phone kept ringing and recieve msges from those have or don-have ppl. Is like ya're working... i flash through those msges. Is like from my Mum. Aunt. Shuhui. Shirley. ETC ETC. And abit of Ben one lo. Ehh Suddenly the floor vibrate like watt seh. Earth is Dying. So freakin scary~. My mum screaming like watt she's angry dat i say i ate too much rice in my life. Lecture starts. Hahas. I'm so glad dat my sis say we've run out of grains. I prefer noodes la. So happy. yesterday i ate alot of rice le lo. Wah channel U Got the Art of Sand. Sand-Art. It's so damn beuaetiful. It's someting dat Vivian Could't do her whole life~. Wah. She could onii envy those chio tings. Alah. Jealous nah. Hahas. Go cook noodle lo.

2009-09-25T17:17:00.002+08:00

Hahhs. I'm so bloody Pathetic. Waited outside the corridoor for donno how many month hahs. I forgotten my key. My sis friend came. By today. Math revision Of the donno watt fcuking. Erm Cone And Spear . Wah i kanna shot by the laptop last second. okay continue. Den my geo lo. Ya should know how slack Mr.mohammad is. Hahs. Today he show us about the abortion ting which i tink is totally irrelevant to geography and he donno got how many raletive ya know? His cousin and aunty and uncle and this and dat. WTH? watt does his family got've concern to our lesson. anyhow spin story ya know? He said his kampong got somebody kanna possess den he go and take a look den a bomoh came den the kanna possess one kick the bomoh the bomoh died on the spot. Den amos say the content is always the same den he say this time got ppl die. i just got the feel that he's waiting for time to pass everyday so he could go home. Ya know got one story he spin one so alike he say the child kill the dad. And the dad use the dog head to put on his neck den he's like a half-dog half-human. DEN THE ENDING IS. the tingy live in the forest. Den the mum at home cry. Lame right? Hahas. I'm so worried about my geo result. Guys buck-up. Hahs. Now gonna eat my sister and co. Baked stuff. Hungry la

2009-09-22T22:23:00.002+08:00

Uhh today kanna. Gang. One word. Shiok. And fun la. Uhh. We really nvr had so much fun le. Although we all turn out to be dirty and untidy. Looking so unglam and creating a obscene but seriously i love it. It's like we feel dat usually. Anyway i still hope we could be those... ... ... Back again. Hahs. Goodnight.

PS:I hope ya're Missing mii.

2009-09-21T17:42:00.004+08:00

Hhahs. I wanna be the vivian dat take alot alot photo every everyday hahs. I fouund out dat i don take a lot photo because of the poor quality of my phone but I don care as long as it could still capture the of mine. Hahhs. Uhh tmr is school and oral is ust round the corner i'll prepare my watever round 7 den bath again at 9 i tink singapore is so hot. Should i rephrase? in such dat Jurong is so hot. Not singapore. The bear of mine drop alot of hair and the fur [I mean] all landed and station on the cone of my ice cream. Hahhs. Look so unglam. hahhs.

PS:I miss ya. But ya didn't at all. Maybe. Yes. Just A little

2009-09-20T21:09:00.003+08:00

Fcuk la. My mum got angry for no rewason. I mean yes there's a reason but i'm not the reason for watt she wanna restrict mii to use the bloody computer? Anyway my aunt came today and could someone tell mii my blog is perfectly fine and healthy because watt i see using the old computer is everyting is mess up. i simply mean the N navigator la. Thanks ppl. Uhh. Boring la.

2009-09-19T21:02:00.002+08:00

Today went studying wit. Jiaming. Adam. Edmund. Joseph. Liang yi. And James and Ong will be coming also but who knows. Everybody forgotten James den Ong quarrel wit mum but we did't know so we told him don come le la. watse time. hahs. okay la. Sorry if ya're speaking the truth la. But Joseph say ya playing soccer. Jia ming say ya just woke up. Adam no comment. Edmund said ya dota-ing. Vivian said ya are changing because ong jiaming told mii he's changing. wah so unknowingly we waste our precious time because of ong. Amd maybe his mum. Well we studied and alot of tings dat just keep us from settling down. So i decide. Next time we'll all stay at home and study. Den anyting ya ppl donno call mii. I'll teach ya on the phone? But watt keep mii going is the december holiday we're going to KBox and dat's a promise yay. Hahahs. DOn bring any of ya galfreids anymore okay? If ben free maybe i call him go uhh? hahs. Brother is the best and i could predict ya ppl saying YES VIVIAN BRING BEN ALONG IF YA WAN!!! uhh. But i know is not true so still give mii one answer la. PROVIDED. If ben wanna go. Hahs. He promised mii but i don wanna FORCE him ya see? Abit of shoting just now. Den i just recieved a call from Ong he say the one mag mii just now is Lee not him den he say in very serious and urgent tone. Den he say Bye bye. So strange. Hahas. Den I just remember i've 6 EXTRA bone and 1 EXTRA kidney dat's why i'm so strange and heavy.

我变得好像另一个我学会了如何飞却没在飞

伤心和倔强的表情似乎不再显露连我都不懂为什么

时间越来越少就算没人董眼泪为什么常常不知觉得掉下是因为一个人吗

但间时间不要停止也不要慢延因为这样收获会减少可是努力还是要加倍

一点都不平衡一点都不公平

收集的温暖已经用完了但剩下的寂寞还是甩不完

我不董我存在的意义什么前途之类的不懂为什么努力了这么久

为了什么未来有一些想放弃的念头

突如其然好像什么都不做什么都不管一直都玩下去

但是我一个人的自私会让几个人失望

这是我的生活还是那些期望我的人的呢我还是有最多权力掌控的

如果我因为一时的冲动和无聊就前工禁飞那就更不值得了

但是我真的有点疲惫

PS:Wah my chinese rock right? It's just a simple intro of my life. Anyway just one more month. Uhh. I hope i'm not dat impulsive and so low in dat mentality. This post is to remind myself dat If i give up don be any surprise because i just predicted it somehow. Anyway. Goodnight And Bye bye.

2009-09-17T20:46:00.002+08:00

Hahahs. Today i did my D and T. I've got 18/30. Hya. I'm so disappoined. Other den dat i'm sleeping. Now.

PS: Maybe. I'm wrong to comment so on ya love towards her. But. I wanna say it's no longer stupidity. Mere Foolishness. If ya gonna continue. It's none of my concern. I'll help ya as long as it's within my control. Because ya're the one suffering. Not mii. I'm just spending effort to help ya. Not spending any bits of my emotion.

But for ya. Ya're inputting those love.

Good Luck.

2009-09-16T20:48:00.004+08:00

Hohohohohoho. Today i studied whole day. I know i'm helpful. Thank mii all ya wan. I listening to radio. So great. The singer saying about her song. She comment dat if the love between two is strong even stranger could feel for them. Hahahs. Well i tink this will not happen to mii in a whole lifetime. I could be the stranger and feel how much The couple is feeling toward each. But i won't be one of the two la. Sob*. Ehh i remember a friend told mii SOB stand for. son of bitch. Hahas. Wattever i mean. Cries*. Den Today went to stagmont and play basketball. So cute the brother of brandon. I'm so boring i wanna play awhile den sleep. So tired. Hahs. Time tends to be so slow. And sometime not noticing how fast time pass. And missed out those important parts in life. I hope time could be slower so i could study and memorize. But i also hope time will pass faster so i could get the result and cry/joy as much as i could and enjoy the holiday. Uhh. Sometime i donno why ya wanna cling on the relationship. So what ya tink ya gonna success? dat's an opinion not a fact. Ya said i'm stubborn and ya are not being flexible too. Let it be the last straw and continue ya life. Don let anyting affect ya. Just sleep and wake up den everyting will be fine the time will heal ya. Let it heal la. What the point holding so tight? and say those mean words to ya friends? when the one ya admire fcuking make ya angry? Don't. Don't anymore. So ya ain't tired. If one day. I decide to let ya face alone and none of my problem. I don't care if ya continue to be so stupid.

PS: Lt time heal. Reason for Hurting will Always have Another Solution to Heal. Fear Not. Idiot.

2009-09-15T20:41:00.003+08:00

Post post post. Hahahs. Today science learning bout the circuit ting. Erm the teacher told mii i'm somewhere there so yah. It's fine. den P.E. I look so like a totally i-di-ot. Wearing the looking-so-big-but-so-small-den-inside-tight-but-outside-loose Regent pants. I look so ugly. So Shh. Keep to yaself. As long as i know how i look and feel. ya know how i look and feel. I don wanna know how ya look and feel. hahs. thanks so much.

PS: Cb la kanna sabo. Bye bye.

2009-09-13T16:26:00.005+08:00

Uhh. Holiday is over. So fast hor?. Hahas. Anyway no much difference just more time spent wit my Dear. Erm. Quite long nvr post uhh. Miss mii?. Erm. My whole day is gone so fast la. Hahas. So boring ya know?. I'm busy. I'm busy wit those boring stuff. When ppl start wit - I'm bored!. They must be damn free. Eaten full and noting make them goes in the toilet. For mii is different. I've so much to do. Study housechore. Preparation for everyting. And reminding my mum and sis for their everyting. But i'm still do bored. When i watch movie. I just keep feeling like fastforwarding when the actor and actress were having a conversation. I donno wat can ever catch my eyes. Food. Uhh-uhh. Hahs. Maybe i'm rotten. I haven been to school so long it must be it. Hahs. Erm i've nth much to say until i drank my milk just now. I wanna say. I finished 2 bottle of milk and 2 bottle of yogurt drink. I'm being so superb and cool right?. It's not those 50ml one is those 1ltr one leh. Hahs. My dad brought those japan biscuit taste. abit higher den average lo. Cause i tink it's quite expensive. so it deserve those quality la. Hahs. Going to fold those clothes. Bye.
PS: Nearer. The 5th of october. Ya remember?. If ya don't. trust mii ya won't wanna see mii cause i'll have make ya a eunuch. I'm serious. But Honey. Ya remeber don ya?. Ya do right?.

2009-09-10T19:10:00.002+08:00

09.09.09. Made some vow to mii. And i make my vow in public. I'll keep loving ya no matter when or how the relationship will end. Although i know ya actually care a little for mii. But ya don't even give a damn to any other strange. Blood-beings. Vivian Toh Vow to love benjamin Chua. Hahs. Well. I did't complete those work. Adam let us go and surrender on the opening of school. Hahas. Den my whole holiday i did't study much. So i'll bring all those books to librery and do damn fcuking lot of notes. I'm sorry if those queue goes longer and longer day by day. And i shall go back on my words. Don line up behind. Don wait patiently. Anymore. I mean this is not fair. To Anybody. Anyway. Dats all. Hahahs. Lastly Ben came and I have fun. I mean we've fun. We watch movie. And he go home lo. Wah. Our life is so full and fantastic.

PS:

I'm Glad. Dat I love ya and ya love mii.

And.

I'll also be Glad if I love ya but ya don love mii.

Thanks for everyting.

2009-09-08T23:47:00.001+08:00

Done changed few of my blog song. Doing the Tingy now. Den changed those lyrics.

2009-09-08T19:02:00.003+08:00

I just spent my day without doing much. I just wasted my time and life. How precious. Hahahs. Den Tmr will be going to movie. And playing. I feel abit of waste But friends are for life. So Life are for friends too. Career I still can't find one. I wanna thanks jia ming for helping mii the Eblaze by 2 mark. I'm the second and he's the first. I always hate helping hand because i tink I'll nvr surpass those who helped mii. Well. Not specificly on this issue. Random. Hahas. Den after tmr I will just continue Studying. And tay HMWK. More and more pervert la. Uhh. I gonna wear a blue top and a black short. I gonna make those out of control cause i love dat top. It look so nice. Abit B@#&* la hahs. But i hate blue. Here. Without ya. I'm still doing great. People don go watch movie wit their man or woman. Look at those singles. Tmr those girls dat are going alone. Come to mii we shall sit together. I'm all yours. Hahahs. I'll entertain the bros wife. Hahhs. I gonna buy a plush for my sis. I know she may not like it. But i love plush. Real lot. So i donno watt she wan. I'll buy someting I like la. Anyway it can't be dat bad. She'll love it. I tink. I hope. Den for my cute baby. Aiyah. Erm plush lo. Hahs. I just tot dat she love mashed-potato. So bad lo. Bully a kiddo. She's so cute weekend den I'll pass it to her. Baby. Yesterday she kiss mii goodbye. Hahs.

2009-09-07T22:36:00.003+08:00

Cause now I'm doing Eblaze. Ya know I hate it and I know I hate it. Everybody knows everybody hate it. Ben is Camping now. In a place dat is so safe and I'm not at least bit of worrying him. I went to do D and T today and i forgotten dat I'm wearing my slippers and i head to school den out of bounds. anyway i found my solution. Den after dat went to grandma house alone. Celebrating my sis and cousin birthday same day. And my cousin is so cute trust mii ya see her first instinct is to hug her. After kissing goodbye and eating the extra-creamy cream cake went home and do my Eblaze still planning my future. i can't find a suitable job. Lecturer is still my current choice den if i wanna be a lecturer i need to further studies and take chemistry and physics but i wan chemistry and biology. Aiyah anyway I'm a survivor. Goodnight. Campers. Goodnight MSN-Until-Very-Late-Ones. Goodnight Bloggers. And those nerds like mii dat are Eblazing now. EBLAZE SUCK TO CORE. VIVIAN ROCK TO HEAVEN. GOODNIGHT. WIT LOVE. MY DEAR.

Sleep earlier if tired la. self-torture for watt uhh?. hahs. Bye Bye.