Ohh! Watt's shame? Opps! Ya Found it in the Mirror.

The spectacle i used to wear. It's crack.

It's always like dat i really hate it. I ran to my room. My door slam shut. I kicked my pillow and i pulled it back.

I scream like a lunatic. I look right into my mirror and my cosmetic blurred my eyes. I squeezed the teddy bear.

I saw it suffocating. I laughed. I did dat all because of. My blog. It's spoil. So I make a new one. Wait before dat.

I wanna slap myself for ruining it. And i wanna thanks Levina for the effort of my new blogskins.

But i don't really favor it. So i'm sorry. Ya. Erm. Anyway. It've been a long time since i changed my skin. Ohh. Okay.

I hate Plastic bags. To mii most of them look so auntie. I prefer paper bags. Foods are smile. But fats are frown.

I'm so happy dat i found this skin. My feet brings mii dancing out of my room. My finger stretch itself forcing the gate open.

The brains works. Calling the key. Anyway. In short. I just physically opened the door. My neighbor call for mii.

And he was awarded a big tight slap. Okay. This is so random. Overall watt i mean is i was happy. = . =".

This is my signature face. = . =" I love fullstops. No commas in my life. A full sentence and a fullstops.

A quick start and a quick end. Between the quick. It must be Slow. Commas tells everybody. It's still continuing.

And i don't like. 3RD of march is the first time my belly-button was tied. And of course it's also my last. Presently.

I've got Good boyfriend. Good brothers. Good family. Good seniors. Good studies. Good life. And a good type of Body shampoo.

My Soap is luminous. But i don't see my skin glitter nor shine. The promoter lied.

Okay saying about boyfriend. Love life. Still young. Enjoying. No comment :]

And brothers. School life. Hand-in-hand. Smiling. The-guys-without-mouth. They nvr tell my secret. Yes they do.

Among themself. My unglamorous attitude and doings. They tease and laugh. Calling names and insult.but we're still best friend
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Best brothers. And it's for life. I love each other :] Sound so gay! Pornographic. Dota. Babes. Maths. Basketball. They could score A.

Family. We're all weirdos. I've a sister and one mum and dad. Just like everybody. My mum is chio. But my dad are not.

My dad are humorous but my mum are not. My sister and mii are very different. In everyting. Find out for yaself

Seniors. Basically it's all regent seniors. May it be LSC. Basketball. Library. Chior. Handball. Redcross. Etc. Juniors rock too.

Studies. No preference. Watt given is watt to be known. Everyday i'll be staying in the library till 5 evening. Do drop by and say hii!

LIFE! Ohh ya. Read my everyday!

Sunday, January 31, 2010

I just remember someting! My boyfriend wore my pink FBT! Hahas! Cute? Yeah.

Hungry. Grrr.

Not feeling well? Yes

There's someting i like to conclude. Gals like saying how fat they are and how ugly they look demoting themself. But when another woman walk pass and said someting like. " Hey look! She look so fat. OMG! I can't believe it!" Or. " Ehh this Buangsai so ugly sia!" The gal will start making a fuss the same time criticizing other party appearance. Hahas. But in the end they still go around saying how ugly they were.

Labels: Lame...

9:49 AM

Friday, January 29, 2010

Hypocrite. Bring it on. They're said to be not worth over tears.

Yay! i've got serious cramp today. Den. I tahan whole day. Today is a short day. But the end of the day make it seems like another day. I know nobody get watt i mean. Hahas. Okay. I got tons of stuff to say. I donno how to line it into sentences and a loading in my mind. Before i start saying indie got crash up. Okay i remember one. This one lame de. Please when somebody come my house don touch my bed. I tickle my boyfriend with my cold fingers. He goes screaming and screaming till he saliva drip all over my bed. I laugh and laugh. Den he do project i sit there sobbing.he ignore mii continue doing he work. Ya know why? because i'm watching hai pai tian xin!!! Sad! Den he goes home without mii sending. I haven eat yet la... sad. Later cramp plus gastric! Hahas! CUI KIA!

I never controlled the speed of any friendship i've been involve with. I believe friends, 9 out of10 turn teir backs the one dat stay and look backs. It's still all worth.I did't nurtured our bonding so i have one to share. I tok to one dat is bonded to mii.

PS:Looking back 5 out of 10 left.

I'm not left wit nothing it's a 5 :]

Labels: 5 out of 10

7:53 PM

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Hahas... Alright... So i'm so attention seeking. So annoying. So act cute. Hahas... ya okay. Accept. Dat's all la. I did't know why i could treat ya guys like my friend. And ya compared to friendship golds are dirt. To ya guys. I'm dirt. So sians. Uhh yeah. Ya ya ya. I'm seeking attention now! Am i ? Am i? Uhh? Fcuk off Fcuk off Fcuk off! Uhh! Wattever watt watt watt... Why do i even bother... ya why did i ever act like we've been so close? Why the fcuk i donno how to think? Act like so close. In the end i still donno watt ya all tinking... Watt ya all saying about mii. Thanks for acting. And sorry for not knowing who i am. Where i stand. Watt i count. In ya eyes...

PS: I'm feeling so so so stupid more & more. Ya i should sleep. And continues.

And cry my heart out.

Labels: Sorry for not knowing who i am.

7:07 PM

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Hahas. Today. Apologise for not meeting ya guys. Hahas. I meet ben instead of thoses gals. Sorry! hahas. Alright. Den study slack walk around den ben go home. Den i'm rotting at home. Den we saw the video. Our big big cute cute ms.low sing de song. Wah! She's the K-Queen man. Erm. Ben says ms. low force students to buy her album! Hahas. Okay let's damn levina first. She post my most unglam photo in her blog. And i should say. AGAIN! = . = " Dat mad black fish uhh! ARG!!! Hahas.

This smart ass. Call her take our face onii. Make mii look short & she look taller. Ya look watt she've done? OMG right? But nvm i ugly i know. Hahas. If pretty watt pose also nice de la. Like mii. Yucks.

I'm asking for a change. But i'm afraid dat i might not be able to adapt. If i did.

I'm so sorry.

Benjamin.

Labels: Sorry.

9:32 PM

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Oh yeah i had an busy week. Everyting went as per norm. But my time is really really running fast.My chen & physic is still okay... PE. I no longer wear FBT. ijust wear during the friday workoutSocial studies & geography. Great. I still could manage. English MT still alright. Amath Emath. No comment. Hahas. Okay... Den ya. i just woke up around 9 plus. Everybody left the house. I'm suppose to study today. Tmr meeting jeslyn. We gonna do our F & N Tgt. Loving uhh? Somehow my every recess is wit those gals... Fish. Cat. Pig. Gum. Ling. Alright. Den forgotten those. Confiscate. & shit stuff. Let mii recall. Friday. Whoo orientation. Fun. i help both environment club & library. I help library more due to the teacher-in-charge. She voice out her unhappiness. Hahas. Den kavi & co was slacking around. Looking at chio gals. Hoping they'll come forward and ask about our CCAs. Or they just gonna give the green bookmark name golden ticket to them. Hahas. This joseh. I beat him up for saying my nose. Ya la ya la. Big la. I inherited this is not my fault. Den he take his green apple tea point it to my nose and ask. Ehh wan drink not? WTH! He say i drink wit my nose. & he keep saying my nose is two black hole. Absorb everyting he can een see the light bending! WTH! Hahas. CBK!@#()*^%#@!@^*()*$#@#%&*(@. Den edmund & co. Keep coming dashing towards my nose. Saying i'm absorbing him. & scream for help. Everybody puling him so he won't So-called suck into my nose. WTF! LOLS. Bunch of Lamers. Low IQ! Siao. Hahas. Dat's all. Bye.

PS: If ya're awaiting to be trusted. Prove it.

BTW. Last 3 second. I kanna sot by this damn laptop. Ouch. Hahas.

Okay dat's all.

Labels: KNS.

10:23 AM

Monday, January 18, 2010

I'm sorry. But i defy ya wish. I know some might be unhappy. Sorry. I tink i can plan for myself... Thanks for ya advise If i'm wrong this time. Blame myself den. Okay. Today woke up late. This is't someting to actually. WOW! But still i look so surprise & chiong up chiong down during dawn. Den write reflection. Saw Damon. pass him the Tee. PE. Run Baby Run. Listening to Ms.Fern saying how she kanna rub & touch & wattever in the MRT. Learning about coastline. Test regard the school laboratory apparatus. A Math revision. & lastly the molested teacher reading aloud. A cripple & a kite. Den i go library. Thanks to Senior JF for ya books. Yay! Formet. Example. Elaborate. Link. I memorised it already.Went to Pizza hut. We onii spent 21 dollars. Great uhh? Go take my scholarship. Yay! It's all a worth. Thanks. Ms.tay. I really have to say... Without ya. I would't have been watt i am now. Although i not any smarties. But still. THANKS!

PERSON.

In between everyting.

Person A called person B. Person B intend to reject the offer. Person B don't gain. Moreover Person B is putting Himself at risks. Person A don sound convincing. Well. Person B decide to try His luck. It's not a small sum. Nor a big sum compared to a friendship. BTW. If there had't be a Person C. Everybody will be happier. & i doubt Person B will even hesitate.

The end.

PS: I really Hope ya could be trusted. Don't let mii down again. Alright? :] I must've be not in the right state of my mind when i decided this. Hope. Everybody is wrong. & i'm right. :] God bless mii!

Labels: 500 little mangos. :]

7:51 PM

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Hoo! It had been sometie since i posted someting here. Aiyah anyting ya guys wanna know regard how my yesterday went. Let visit the big big levina blog! OMFG! & Amecan! Both of them will be punish by one big hug of mine for ruining my image. & Rewarded one tight slap. & Again for ruining my inage. Damn it. Hahas. UGLY UGLY UGLY! Hahas. But i don mind. This is mii. Okay i really do mind. But i've to say i don't since it's already uploaded. Hahas. Lot's of HMWK. I did't manage to finish. Unexpectedly. Ben came. He seems to be very tired. As he fall asleep again. Applaus! Ya. Opps. Let's retype this sentence. As he fall asleep AGAIN. = . = " Ya ya ya. Anyway he nvr had the habit of viewing blog compared to FB la. Okay so I did't reply his msg. Because. I'm unhappy. To be exact i donno how to. Hahas. Having really really bad mood. Due to the pressure of my studies. Due to the Few Brothers-For-life. I actually. Had. Due to my house. I hate to return after a tiring day. & nobody at sight. Sitting alone. The television nvr ever tried calling mii out. The timid phone don't dare to made a sound. Onii the book & the radio. or maybe another scenery. I reaches home. I saw this woman position in my mess-up room. Staring hard at mii. Compaq is her life. She view manga & japanese drama. I start to make noise. & i end up in the dining room. Still reading book. But no radio. The onii difference is the venue & the DJ. It's 9.42 now. & still nobody at sight. Since this morning. I'm chatting wit ben but this don't build up my mood. Because i just earn myself a slap. I feel so boring...

PS: Ya guys don't mean much to mii. So shut up if this kinda tingy break our friendship. Not worth it at all.

Labels: I hate my life.

9:27 PM

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Hahas. Ya. First i wanna say. I'm fine. Not dat weak. So ya i did rest well. Any human will be sick eventually. LOLS. Okay let's start wit my speech now. I wanna say! I very very long nvr see ppl blog le. Although i did follow but i did't even really peep so ya. I gonna taggy ya guys! Whoo yay! Okay den i tell ya all hor. My skirt kanna caught again. Bullshit. Stupid chao sng! Eee! My skirt. [ This second. Ben call & our conversation last so long! Whoo it's a big big TEN SECOND] Applaus. = . = " I like my present class. They very cute! Sometime they laugh suddenly. They made comment. Some stand up & strech. & we believe in democracy. We always vote for Vote! Hahas. So glad. But still I miss 2/3... Alright. So sng call mii give ez-link i drag & drag. In the end i call her go away. I won't give. Please lo. My skirt so long. But after asking few of the grown-ups. They say short. Okay! I brought a new one. I'll fold after school. & unfold during assembly. Chao sng! uhh! Den she give mii letter call mii show my mum. During recess i show her. MY NEW DAMN LONG CUTE FREAKY SKIRT. She praises mii. I deserve it. I crash the letter she gave. I Rock. Alright. So math. WHOO! Really very difficult la. I spent whole evening wit Gabrielle. Jeslyn & Fiona. Doing Math. Hahas. Den i saw YC & CO. They playing chi-na. Game. Hahas. Erm. Den. Meet aunt. Quarreel wit sis. To preserve the already strain image of my sis. I shall not say watt happen. Although her image had already ruin. UHH! Hahas. Now. At home. Doing nothing. Going bathe sleep. Tmr study my math again. Whoo. I must not neglect my SS too. Everyting a milion times harder. Uhh! Vivian I love ya. Do ya best! I know ya can! Yay! Bye bey! narcissist woman.

Labels: Narcissist

6:51 PM

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Yesterday nvr sleep. Well. So today headache. & stomach ache. So ya. I skip school today. Heng yesterday. I did self-revision. Den today teacher teach the same ting i did yesterday. I gonna rest awhile. Really tired. Hahas.

Labels: 40 percent. Is alot.

11:35 AM

Friday, January 8, 2010

I should't call ya. I donno watt i wanna say. because watt i always say i nvr do it. Shut up la vivian. God. it's like. WTH la? I say if this continue. I gonna hang up. & i did just dat. Almost first time in my life. & yes yes yes. Unhappiness & friction was caused. Ended abruptly by saying. Hugs. I mean. Does it help? At all? I find it so helpless when i voice out & the expected reaction is always not expected. Sometimes. I expected the expected is not expected. But somehow i wanna give myself some false hope. Why can't this stop? Not mood swings. Not depression. Just find myself not able to defend myself in this relationship. Is this worth? But. I'm tired. Saying this crap. Crying & feeling shag & stress again. Not because of my studies. I'm coping well. Compared to my relationship. But please please. I should really STFU Because. I could't end this... So my grumbles. Will never end till the day. I changed my status to. In a relationship wit Ben chua.

Part-time? Sorry.

Labels: Blank.

8:28 PM

Today like sians sians. Listening to Ms.Tay & Sng lesson. Feel like sleeping. But quite slack la. Okay den recess. Den after dat. Math. Amanda teach mii the wrong stuff. = . = " LOLS. Thanks Liangyee. Ya're the bro man. Hahas. I always wanna laugh when i saw Ms.Fern face. I just remember someting. Ya know there's an calculation error when she check the amount of forms handed. We laughing at her. She say she don mind. But i know she do. Dramatic & lively plus sarcasm in her teaching. I do enjoy. When she does. But not when it's to mii. Mii & Gabrielle wanna change place ma. Den she ask for suggestion. Den i say swop place wit this & dat. Den she say it's unfair to let other student sit the place we guys rejected. & i told her why is it fair for us to sit at the place in the first place. She shut up. LOLS. She rearrange the class structure. & mii & gabrielle was position right in the middle.

Quarrels & quarrels. Never ending shit.

Labels: Sleep.

8:08 PM

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Update now la. = . = " hahas. Kinda stress today. From observing the teachers expression. I feel so pressurised. They like so serious saying all the same shit. LOLS. Ehh i'm so tired. My alarm did not ring. I nearly late. cab to school. I don understand why i always meet those uncle who donno the way. KNS. Den this uncle anyhow drive i told him i gonna be late in 3 minutes time. He still go wrong way. I nearly scream my lungs out in the car. But i did't i was too kind. I'm tinking if i really donno the way & i kanna scream i'll slap the bitch. So ya. Anyway i was't late. I heard dat there's this veitnam trip. Quite excited. I decided my roommates le. Chanel & this frined of hers. Actually wanna join jeslyn de. But her group like full liao. So nvm la. Kakakas. It gonna be fun. So let's have high hopes. I don wan disappointment. Tired! I sleep in mrt. This uncle landed on my toes. & treat it like nobody business. & walk off. I diao him. But fake blind. LOLS. But thanks to him. or i would have reach joo koon lo. Hahahs. Bye bey. Tmr gonna stay in library lo. Sians. Now i know i don't miss my life. I should have give this life a miss. LOLS. Bye.

Labels: Stress start.

5:22 PM

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Hahas! Ya. Today went Malaysia. Den steamboat. Uhh. No more mood. No more phone. We can't text. Alright. Due to different view. We had a lil bit of friction again. How many many many times. I should say. SO YA COULD GET WATT I MEAN. I don like my phone hang without my approval. Or should i say. Without mii noticing. I don understand. I'm not gonna call ya. I feel so wrong. & confused. Watt was dat for. Hahas. Alright. I gonna sleep. Practical. Practical stuff. I'm like. I can't give. I don go for dat. To mii ya just seems like ya don appreciate my present. I can't blame ya. It's not someting ya wan. I'm just so not sensible... I hate myself. I hate ya. SUA. Sua. sua. I going bathe den sleep. Tok to the bear. BTW. If ya really not so fond of the bear. I'll be disappointed but it's alright. I'll have another bear to hug. return it. I'll be more den happy. I mean it. When i say someting. I'm prepare to accept it. So don worry for mii. Just like when ya say don worry for ya. Alright.

Conclusion.

If ya don like someting from mii return. Because. It cost mii a load.

Mutual respect towards our views on different matters & religious & spiritual stuff.

Don Hang my phone.

If ya give mii someting I'll love it. I don care watt is it la. I'm sure i do.

I'll respect ya views & won't tell ya anymore crap.

I believe ya don like ya conversation to be cut off unknowingly too.

I won't call ya cause i'm angry & i lost my phone so good luck to both. Of us.

PS: Goodnight. Ya can have a good rest without tinking dat i'm pressing ya for time. I Just wanna bathe just now. But nvm... Giva & take. Alright. Sorry. I apologise for the misleading. So everyting could be solved okay?

Labels: ANGRY.

1:30 AM

Friday, January 1, 2010

Ehh. Yesterday went to countdown wit ben! Yay! Hahas. We went to Kok how countdown first. Den play play play. Quite okay la. Haahs. Den after that go jon house. Fun. & chio. Kakakakakakakakakakas. Den erm... This sister puke. Den we play mahjong. Den Xuejing dage like so hungry. Eat eat eat. Pong pong pong. Den another sister keep hu. I donno sit ther do watt. Just to feed the little xuejing. Hahas. He gonna kill mii! Okay. Den ben say he can hear fire works. I tink he is a freaking bombster. Den i laugh. but when i heard it myself. I stun. My bad. Den i told him i saw fireworks. I tink he must be tinking i'm another freaking bombster. But later on he saw it himself. Laugh laugh. Den ben send mii home. I laugh @ da ge hairy arm. I know la he hate mii. Admit it! LOLS. Den this group of Bangla stare @ mii. So my dear sent mii home... He worry ma. Thank ya. Den i gave him the bear bear... Hee. I love ya... School reopening. Mood almost back. So today i went Zhou kitchen wit this half of my family. Grandparents. & co. = . =" So ya guys expect mii to name all out right? But i donwan leh. I wear this suit like very cute de. Abit like Minnie mouse one la. Anyway i got home. LAstly. Happy new year guys. A new starting of everyting.

Labels: Happy new year.

7:16 PM

Vivian is my god! But it's time for other prayers. Bless mii!