It's always like dat i really hate it. I ran to my room. My door slam shut. I kicked my pillow and i pulled it back.

I scream like a lunatic. I look right into my mirror and my cosmetic blurred my eyes. I squeezed the teddy bear.

I saw it suffocating. I laughed. I did dat all because of. My blog. It's spoil. So I make a new one. Wait before dat.

I wanna slap myself for ruining it. And i wanna thanks Levina for the effort of my new blogskins.

But i don't really favor it. So i'm sorry. Ya. Erm. Anyway. It've been a long time since i changed my skin. Ohh. Okay.

I hate Plastic bags. To mii most of them look so auntie. I prefer paper bags. Foods are smile. But fats are frown.

I'm so happy dat i found this skin. My feet brings mii dancing out of my room. My finger stretch itself forcing the gate open.

The brains works. Calling the key. Anyway. In short. I just physically opened the door. My neighbor call for mii.

And he was awarded a big tight slap. Okay. This is so random. Overall watt i mean is i was happy. = . =".

This is my signature face. = . =" I love fullstops. No commas in my life. A full sentence and a fullstops.

A quick start and a quick end. Between the quick. It must be Slow. Commas tells everybody. It's still continuing.

And i don't like. 3RD of march is the first time my belly-button was tied. And of course it's also my last. Presently.

I've got Good boyfriend. Good brothers. Good family. Good seniors. Good studies. Good life. And a good type of Body shampoo.

My Soap is luminous. But i don't see my skin glitter nor shine. The promoter lied.

Okay saying about boyfriend. Love life. Still young. Enjoying. No comment :]

And brothers. School life. Hand-in-hand. Smiling. The-guys-without-mouth. They nvr tell my secret. Yes they do.

Among themself. My unglamorous attitude and doings. They tease and laugh. Calling names and insult.but we're still best friend
.
Best brothers. And it's for life. I love each other :] Sound so gay! Pornographic. Dota. Babes. Maths. Basketball. They could score A.

Family. We're all weirdos. I've a sister and one mum and dad. Just like everybody. My mum is chio. But my dad are not.

My dad are humorous but my mum are not. My sister and mii are very different. In everyting. Find out for yaself

Seniors. Basically it's all regent seniors. May it be LSC. Basketball. Library. Chior. Handball. Redcross. Etc. Juniors rock too.

Studies. No preference. Watt given is watt to be known. Everyday i'll be staying in the library till 5 evening. Do drop by and say hii!

LIFE! Ohh ya. Read my everyday!

ehh ..
yarh ..
yesterday ..
i went home after the experiment ..
and i tink i quite-got the formula .. :] ..
i went home almost straight away ..
well sitting at the bus-stop ..
ehh ..
saw my ben ..
he was like waving to mii like a kid =.= ..
hahax ..
den bus come ..
den ride loo ..
very boring so i went for a ride round to lot 1
alone ..
hee ..
after dat eat ..
alone ..
den rush home ..
for no particular reason ..
still alone ..
all stupid brother of mine ..
go lan .. play cs ..
shirley went tpy ..
kq .. pon school ..
levina .. netball ..
:[ ..
therefore dat fateful day ..
time run real slow ..
worst ting is ..
i reach my doorstep den remember i no key .. :[ ..
i waited for3.45 to 7 ..
alone again ..
i tell no one .. :[ ..
felt so pathatic .. ~ ..
too pathetic to share but decide write in blog cox ..
nth to write .. :[ ..
den finally ..
my ben cor .. ~ ..
hahax ..
yay .. !! ..
jus gonna tell him i very ke lian and why ..
he start to ask mii ..
how about the outing on sunday .. ~ ..
den after dat hang liao ..
argh .. !! ..
don wanna bother him cox he wit his frenx ..
so i alone .. :[ ..
alone and alone ..
so sad ..
so sianx ..
reach home finally hungry de mii ..
not hungry liao cox endure too long lerh ..
but i still ate lah ..
hahax ..
btw ..
the bread i smuggle to class ..
i haven eat yet cox ..
i busy doing math ..
forgotten liao ..
hahax ..
sure turn mouldy in class de ..
eee .. ~ ..
yucks man .. !! ..
the story of mother bread .. father bread and baby bread .. :] ..
now the bread is alone .. but got two so can keep each other company .. two bread alone in a lock room .. arh .. ~ .. tink of watt .. ?? .. hahax .. later i return class see three bread one is small samll de bread .. :] .. few-hour-old de bread .. den the father mother die liao cox .. mouldy lerh .. den i can eat the baby bread .. :] .. arh .. wayy shit i saying .. ;] .. incurable .. ~ ..
btw ..
my tongue bleeding ..
kanna cut by the chocolate i eating ..
cox got nuts de ..
i don really like nutty chocolate .. :] ..
actually i donno de den later got blood de smell tot chocolate spoilt liao ..
den see expiry date ..
still got quite long den i tot is my teeth bleed leh ..
i faster take toothbrush brush teeth ..
wah den my tongue ..
damn pain cox the stupid toothpaste ..
den i know is my tongue fault ..
i wan toothpaste dat taste sweet ..
den i can eat it while watching television .. :] ..
i use to do dat ..
but i don tink i will do dat now lahx ..
jus saying for wattever reason ..
i donno ..
:] ..



getting tired of describing my day ..
hahax ..
today math common test tink can score high .. :] ..
but when our class in in deep silence ..
i start to hiccups ..
hee ..
i try my best to hiccup softly ..
den visit library den sis bring mii home ..
kai qing the ting regard the chatbox ..
hahax .. very guai leh ..
like dat also can headline ..
today rain ..
i wanna play in the rain ..
i wanna be emo ..
i no longer wan to surpress ..
myself and express everyting out ..
cried as hard and loud as i could ..
i really wish i could do so ..
but the time don allow ..
i have to go home ..
and i sort out someting dat i should't cry anm ..
i'm a teenager !! ..
so no matter how sad or hurt i feel ..
i will not cry ..
my promise to myself ..
my mood start to change everyting in my life ..
when i feel moody ..
and it raining outside it make mii wanna cry more ..
when i am feeling hyper and hot ..
i will be crazy and wish for a play in the rain and feel cooling ..
i miss ya ..



hey ..
just woke up ..
and eaten ..
so full ..
hahax ..
life is damn boring de kay .. ?? ..
hahax ..
today morning hor ..
very bo song arh ..
keep hearing ..
hu ~ .. xi ~..
[breath in breath out .. ]
and i'm like =.=
wth .. !! ..
ppl sleeping ..
downstir playing taiji ..
crazy arh .. ?? ..
connot sleep properly ..
so damn noisy ..
den try to sleep back ..
i am so annoyed by the vioce until i even hear it in the scenery of my dream ..
worst ting is my grandmother ..
is playing downstair wit her frenx ..
hahax ..
den i connot scold and swear bout dat event cox ..
she love it ..
hahax ..
kay stop all my crap .. :] ..
yesterday went betok and brought a bag for myself at 16 ..
it so chio ..
kay lahx ..
ppl may say it cheap ..
but for mii it is ex cox ..
i use my pkt $ ..
btw ..
i brought 3 tees ..
artistic but not dat chio ..
one for shirley ..
design diff ..
from other 2 iown her ..
valentine ..
i rob ..
my cousin watch ..
donwan return to her ..
let her cry ..
seo ..
yah .. i'm a sicko ..
i watch ..
the ai jiu zai yi qi ..
quite nice de :] ..
i like mars loo ..
the da dong ..
wah damn shuang de ..
but connot compared wit my dar lashx .. ;] ..
hahax ..
hey .. dar don worry .. i still got money eat de :] ..



i went into my room and suddenly sneeze cox ..
i smell the heavy scent of him .. so strong ..
i onii spay my room thrice wit that perfume ..
hahax ..
math lesson ..
i doning algebra question and
adam ask : 2Asquare-Asquare= ?? ..
i reply: stupid of cox is 2 lahx .. stupid ..
i'm so engross doing my other algebraic work until so stress and i simply say dat ..
adam : ehh tudi ya mad liao arh .. ?? .. ya ask jia ming .. .. :] ..
mii: ehh .. hiang dii watt is 2Asquare-Asquare= ?? ..
jia ming :Asquare i tink .. :] ..
ya are mad ..
ya and adam are mad not mii lahx ..
i go ask teacher ya wrong i tell ya i kill ya arh ..
ite ..
they are correct ..
and i donno why i told adam dat .. why i'm wrong when all my algebric expression is
ALL
correct
hahax .. sttress i tink ..
i should have fail if i don even understand this concept ..
hahax ..
they say i'm possessed ..
and my new name is ..
ZI BI ALL THE WAY EHH .. ~ ..
kay lahx very lame tht why say out ..
i miss him ..
ehh when ya say miss him ..
it like saying miss.him ..
got ppl surname is him de or not arh .. ?? ..
he gone to bbq today .. :] ..
wahx ..
ppl view my blog den can know his wherebout lerh ..
ppl asking mii why keep writing bout him ..
i said his included in my life watt ..
but someyime is like nth to write mahx ..
den become habit ..
loo ..
actually today den i know ..
i going to a bbq party too ..
but it postphone ..
cox my frenx msg mii and tell mii ..
if they nvr did ..
i gonna miss another gathering ..
hahax ..
den i check my calander why did i wrote down ..
hahax ..
and i found out i did but i wrote it on the next month de ..
my alarm goes off i tune it at 1.00 to wake up and it auto snooze ..
until 6.00 den i woke up ..
i wonder watta stupid alarm for when it can't wake its master up ..
hee ..
i woke up and saw no one at home ..
i wanna go out and slack ..
maybe ..
alone ..
or wit frenx ..
but i tink i wanna visit my grandma ..
later on ..
i connot find my sis ..
connot contact her .. i
wanna go for a haircut .. :] ..
but i'm broke ..
hahax ..
i spent my pkt $
20 on fbt ..
10 for kyle bbq ..
10 to eat ..
so now left 10 onii ..
go haircut .. ?? ..
my haversack getting further ..
hya ..
ya ppl must be tinking why i don ask $ from daddy and mummy ..
cox i seldom see them ..
i can't possible see them once a week and say ..
i don have $ ..
give mii $ ..
o wattsoever ..
simply can't so kidos outside will see mii getting skinnirer when time pass ..
still got lot of ting to buy .. :[ ..
hahax ..
nvm ..
i cannot ask question o certain situation ..
bare it it and ..
gonna pass ..
very fast i tink ..
eating is optional just like watt robin and khalis say .. attending art lesson is optional .. ya have a chioce to skip .. they taught mii dat ..



tada .. today .. i'm kanna stay-ed by ms.tay .. and i'm so looking forward to it .. i donno why i lied so .. hahax .. as usaual .. no .. no longer as usual .. but unexpectedly .. i'm all alone in the library .. and instead of sobbing .. i choose to look on the bright side man .. :] .. i chat wit the librarian and cynthia .. hoo .. ~ .. better den sunflower corner arh .. ~ .. consoling myself .. * .. the librarian said she did't know watt i done wrong .. and i donno too .. i walk to miss tay and say ..
vivian:hey ms.tay am i that naughty for ya to punish mii like dat .. ?? ..
ms.tay:no but i tink it time for ya to settle down and stop playing .. :] ..
i'm like .. erm .. kay .. :] .. anyway she mean good i have to study .. :] .. and stop blaming .. she onii assiting mii and .. though the punishment is bit over .. she say is my slippers but .. she is using dat as a excuse .. hahax .. overall she meant good .. no harm staying in the library .. well .. thanks ms.tay anyway .. :] ..

time don flies .. time climb .. i'm alway waiting for time to go but sometime i just need to buy time .. hya .. so much ting to decide in life seh .. i don use to experience dat last time .. i growing mature day by day .. yay .. !! .. limin faint today .. hahax .. kay lahx shold't laugh .. i'm just too use to typing dat .. found out that there are really a lot of nice ppl outside .. and got a lot of ppl which disgusted mii too .. te librarian said she is so happy i came to chat wit her .. i mean ya she happy .. but maybe i'm .. :[ .. but nvm accept this time .. if again .. anyhow kanna punishment .. rebel arh .. ~ .. don care liao dat time .. anyways .. i recieve imformation that .. this will not last long de .. i always kanna to write reflection and den i wrote but if once i nvr .. i will be dead .. den i thought if i were to nvr write reflection but i done once .. i will been praise of gaining improvment .. so i shall do dat now .. i will guai everyday .. see how i kanna al those shit teacher give .. hahax .. :] .. just wait ..

BULLIES .. is no longer bully .. ;] .. i hate my life to be dull .. i guai but don make mii make ya life like hell .. and hate ya like shit .. refering to none .. just feel like saying that to show how fierce i'm :] .. scared .. ?? .. so now .. stop bulling <- hahax .. joyce is the in-charge just wanna .. say to make her no face .. don tink she got any face .. ;/ .. wanna be famous learn from her .. guys .. :] .. or rather notorious ..

muacks baby goodnight .. :] .. gonna sleep .. waiting for midnight to watch .. channel u i tink .. wan accompany mii not .. ?? .. off-ing com so reply im msg .. thankx ya .. :] ..



today .. quite sad kanna say STUPID .. i relly very stupid meh .. ?? .. i really very stupid loo .. :[ .. hya .. kanna suspension just cox of wearing slippers to school .. and ms.sng release mii .. to class and i get 2 more hour of detention and .. i have to serve round 10 hours detention cox today miss every lesson .. :[ .. jus cox of sat slippers .. after school must report to ms.tay .. claim my phone cox i will have to hand my phone to her EVERY morning .. :[ .. till donno when .. my life totally sucks and i'm not happy wit it cox .. this is worst den progress chart .. i mean it onii a pair of slippers .. and i do have blister .. somemore got 3 arh .. and even handed a letter .. so watt wrong wit it .. ?? .. seriousely i don find any wrong in mii .. but i still apologise to mummy and daddy .. still got a lot ofrule .. i nearly cry round the school permise .. it onii a pair of slippers .. cox of dat .. my bro have to sacrify and not to slack until i gain my freedom ..

BULLYS .. !! .. :[ ..

sorry i contain birds-brain .. :[ ..

i prepare to help every single one to complete their hmwk .. plese hand in the form for mii to
help ya if
if ya are at least my friend but not onii classmate
if ya look pretty or handsome
if ya have a nicebody :]
if ya are a male or female
if i own ya some favour
if that piece of work require tinking
if the piece of work reqiure wrting
if ya don hate curly handwriting
i donno .. lahx .. btw .. who got extra phone to lend mii and who got extra calculater arh .. ?? ..
share arh .. ~ ..

i find my life so FUCKY .. !! .. :[ ..



hee ..
today he come find mii ..
yay .. !! ..
quite happy de .. :] ..
actually wan him pei mii de
but
dat blister of his is so annoying ..
it just won bare to leave his so-called delicate leg ..
hahax ..
he is laughing and teasing all the way ..
hahax ..
making mii laugh non-stop .. :] ..
today ..
nth much happen ..
other den dat ..
i walking round the school wit my
floopy slippers
untidy uniform
and
slanted skirt ..
but now ..
i learn guai liao ..
i brought a uniforjm which is so body-hugging ..
tight and fit .. :] ..
my haversack really have to wait blame my stupid shirley man ..
have to pay for her wrongdoing ..
but nvm .. :] ..
haversack is not more important den shirley ..
shirley .. ~ .. shiok right .. ?? ..
don too happy cox ..
ya are not more important den my dar .. :] ..
btw ..
dar should be more happy lahx .. :] ..
i wanna wear slipper tmr cox it p.e .
and i could run around without anything on ..
wat i mean is ..
without anyting on my feet .. :] ..
morning we meet at mac ..
actually i'm damn tired ..
but bo bian promise liao jiu try to be puntual loo ..
but ..
i 'm late anyway ..
at least i got go right .. ?? ..
kay lahx .. i'm sorry everybody for my laziness .. :] ..
i don usually be puntual de right .. ?? ..
onii for someone date ..
i nvr late before ..
but he always late .. :[ ..
think back i did late before ..
once ..
on our first date ..
dat one not even date is onii meeting ..
i late 1 minute onii ..
hahax ..
i still remeber ..
it 6.40 and i reach at 6.41 ..
he was like one minute still late right .. ?? ..
friday .. 10 of october .. hahax .. :] .. is dat fateful day ..
kay ..
stop here i gonna do some tinking ..
hahax ..
i have to tink why is my leg so hairy and why is my toes so black ..
is kai qing fault she keep steping on my toes
and
my leg hair is cox i fall down ..
hya ..
maybe not
so ..
i gonna stare at my son and tink real hrad ..
why .. ?? ..
WHY .. ?? ..
hahax ..
do some reflection .. :] ..
the duration longer and love gonna be deeper but it does not determine fully on the duration spent cox .. feeling connot simply be measure using a timeline .. so don ask mii why .. cox i d0n know .. :] ..



ya .. we'r back to sister man ..
hahax ..
maybe thank to ben .. :] ..
not maybe but definitely cox ..
he like ..
i'm in the wrong ..
it not i nvr tink and apologse ..
it becox ..
i have both idea in my mind ..
and seriously i don know ..
watt to do ..
need some opinion from ..
ppl ..
and some give ..
opinion such as ..
fight lahx .. she also got attitude ..
don fight lahx it serve no good to both party ..
or som sinply answer don ask mii .. i am 6too stupid to tell ya .. <--
evrybody should know ..
onii she will give mii this knida of answer when ..
i ask her for help ..
hahax ..
so tink maybe ..
i done right chioce ..
both of us just care bout our face ..
and not willing to take a step forward ..
ya donwan fight wit mii should tell mii mahx ..
i tot ya wan fight loo ..
anyway ..
don let history repeat to anyone of us anymore ..
seriously should be more straight forward ..
:] ..
kay .. lahx ..
I'M SORRY .. LEVINA .. :] ..
it over and tell ya waytt i planning initially .. lahx ..
hahax ..
at first donwan fight de jus wan disturb ya ..
den ya like getting so ready .. [dat watt i tot lahx] ..
so we quarrel loo ..
hahax .. actually the matter is damn simple but we make it so complicating .. :] .. hahax ..

anyway ..
gonna post bout yesterday ..
we went out and nvr jio levina ..
ben tink is real bad ..
but he don really wanna say is my fault ..
we went to causeway point ..
and we watch the wedding game ..
the movie is like ..
BORING ..
i slept and i woke up cox ..
my skinny slip off my hip ..
heng onii shirley saw ..
but she nvr tell mii ..
hahax ..
i find it cooling so i woke up ..
:p ..
we went slacking all around ..
yarh i really want to spent my valentine wit ya de loo .. :[ ..
since ya say i did't celebrate last year watt ..
.. but nvm ..
next time ..
ya have to work bo bian .. ~ ..
hahax ..
i remember watt i wanna post when i sat down ..
i wanna tell everybody .. i did not fart in the mrt ..
hahax ..
stupid lliang yii and adam ruin my reputation of saying i farted in the mrt ..
LOUDLY ..
ppl looking at mii ..
wahx ..
my face like ..
all red de kay .. ?? ..
they just don have brain ..
there is two babies in the cubical ..
they are more suspicious den mii ..
and it is the smell of shit ..
not fart kay .. ?? ..
hahax ..
i can't possible shit in the mrt ..
and i'm no longer a childrewn ..
very sia sway to say this in public but i really need som clarification ..
hee ..
sec one are arrogent man ..
no like us ..
we last year keeping low-profile ..
they donno ..
who to ..
offend ..
and they choose to offend those which they can't such as ..
our ..
CHERMAINE .. !! ..
come come .. everybody clap .. !! ..
i did know ..
watt happen ..
but i just happen to pass by and carrying my ben jr ..
around in my arm cox ..
he smell really nice .. :] ..
but kanna one punch from chermaine for no reason .. ~ .. :[ ..
after dat she apologise and gave mii a hug .. :] ..
arh very pain .. ~ ..
recieve a msg ..
remeber bring my bag kay .. ?? ..
and i go ..
=.= ..
ya bag is huge man ..
hahax ..
i will de ..
lahx ..
i really favour haversack but my money is like air more den water ..
i will have to save a while before i buy a bag for mayself ..
i'm so deficiency ..
i promise myself so long lerh .. :[ ..
i gonna buy one for myself ..
so jun jie ..
don bother buy one for mii ..
ox i donwan ..
i wan buy one myself .. :] ..
thx for ya tot anw ..
don wanna own ya lahx .. :] ..



please lahx .. watt do ya mean dat i donno anyting don say out .. ?? .. i'm the one kanna all ya arrows kay .. ?? .. if ya really donno den forget it .. i don really need a "sorry" and for goodness ake lahx .. i let ya lahx .. wan watt take lahx .. i can survive wit all the remaining kay .. ?? .. apologise until so bu gan yuan .. den don't .. tink i wanna force ya meh .. ?? .. i did't know ya are sad or hurt .. but at least from ya appearance i know .. ya don .. i really wanna post watt happen dat day .. dat fateful whole .. day .. ya don need to like the attitude of flirting den ya can flirt .. i hate hongster does't mean i cannot hong .. its because i donwan to hong ..


a cheater don say him/herself cheats .. :] ..

emotion cannot be control .. dat day .. heart sank real deep .. ya simply ignore and add fuel into flame .. ya just heed for the spotlight .. i gonna continue be my mini tiny .. dust .. :] .. happily as before .. or even create a name for my "dust" and not heed into the crowd which gather and form not because of mii .. even if alone .. ?? .. :] ..



死了的话可能会更好 ..




hey watt wrong wit ya man .. ?? ..
hu ya man .. ?? ..
ya did't apologise and now i gonna write real big ..
LEVINA YA DID NOT APOLOGISE ..
enough lahx ..
don wanna say i hate ya ..
but ya attitude sucks ..
fine .. !! ..
today watt happen to mii in class ya did't even bother ..
ya are getting so ready for a fight ..
ya just getting ppl for support ..
ya know ..
even if everybody don support mii i will still continue my journey just as strong kay .. ?? ..
blah .. :p ..
hack-care lahx ..
seldom fight lerh den still can be back wit ya as sister without a little scar ..
at all ..
it's hard i know that why i tink real hard over every think these few day but all ya tot is NTH ..
and so i don have to tot that hard
i tot ..
and ..
hey thicker bra is for chermaine kay .. ?? ..
watt happen in stagmont between ya and mii .. ?? ..
ya know .. ?? ..
i don't even know kay .. ?? ..
cause nth happen ..
i'm heeding home and ya in school ..
jump into conclusion ..
i said I hate ya attitude of flirting ..
but i'm not yet that
childish imature and lame to start a quarrel over this ya ..
ya flirt ya dai ji anw ..
not my problem anymore ..
i should say ..
i don wanna start a fight ..
but ya still containing the vitue of ..
this-one-don-have-got-dat-one ..
which i admirer most ..
arh den suay arh ..
remember lahx .. !! ..
i don go begging for frenx ya ..
[ong jia ming meh .. ?? .. hahax .. jkjk nia .. ] ..
hack-care lahx ..
even jia ming ..
adam ..
freddy ..
kai qing ..
shirley ..
amecan ..
etc ..
wan backstab mii den suar lahx ..
i
accept arh ..
attitude arh ..
blah .. how old liao .. ?? ..
still fighting over frenx this frenx dat ..
grow up and be a little mature will .. ya .. ?? ..
don make mii hate ya like hell cause it's hard but if ya try ..
no garantee from mii ..
ya may just attain the point of being hate by mii ..
snatch all ya wan ..
for everyting i don mind ..
i mean it ..
i don mind ..

hey ..
i'm sorry lahx ..
i'm always hurting ya ..
maybe ya felt really numb inside ..
not maybe but very confident of a saying ..
ya lost interest ..
liao ..
nvm lahx ..
i will wait de lahx .. :] ..
kay lahx ..
tink carfully
and dat apply to both of us ..
of cause i wanna continue our love lahx ..
lot of example are font of mii ..
i know ..
i will regret ..
just like them ..
but at least donwan ya to regret being wit mii ..
not trying to phrase it real nice but ya know ..
i never meant to be firce toward ya ..
but sometimes i really felt the unhappiness in ya ..
i tot if it was mii who causes everyting ..
if it was i will end this agony of ya ..
i cried the whole night i can't sleep ..
i doze off midnight and woke up agian thrice to flood my bed and floor ..
my nail broke as i slip on my tears ..
i felt exhuasted today ..
cause i connot get ya out of my mind ..
my smile does not last long ..
the tot of causing ya heartbroken ..
make my heart crack too ..
i know ya always firm ..
once the decision ya have ..
made ya won change easily ..
i don know ya that well
but
at least i know ya attitude of handling matters ..
i wait ..
i will wait ..
:] ..


我已经开始后悔了
遗憾也都迟到
请原谅我
我懂不是因为爱淡了
因为你心情忽冷忽热吗
因为我的自私和不够成熟吗
就那一瞬间的冷漠我已经无法承受了
我懂
是我错了
太过自我为中心
因为我不会
爱
可能还是不够吧
可能起初你就不是我的
可能是后天性作用
可能相处的时间不够
你还要继续教我如何爱吗
会给你足够的时间
然后在远远的边缘守候 .. :] ..



i don't know ..
is my favourite word now .. why .. ?? ..
i don't know ..
卓明利 .. 几岁了 .. ?? .. 还这样 .. childish .. ?? ..
i don't know ..




i'm bit guilty lahx ..
maybe ya just don know watt exactly is wrong ..
but in fact don wan ya to be so emo kay .. ?? .. erm .. some friends are like bullshit.some are not. watt the meaning man .. ?? ..
some ppl in regent are chio and some are buang ..
and den so .. ?? ..
i don know .. ~ ..
i know ya don know too ..
i just bo xong ya attitude of ..
i don know ..
i just know my principle ..
of at least not being a substitute or reserve-frenx .. i tot .. maybe ..
i don't know ..
and ya will change ..
or wattsoever ..
but as i say ..
no right to cor ya amend ..
hey man .. ?? .. where i stand man ..
even in basketball or soccer team i'm onii left to sit at the bench ya ..
hahax ..
but leh .. ?? ..
still e same .. watt ..
i knew .. ya got lot frenx de more one not alot
less one the amount also remained arh .. ?? ..
dat watt i see from my degree ya ..
and ..
babe i'm not sorry that watt i feel at least now ..
ya know i don follow the wind de ..
i lead just like my wallet ..
but this time i'm at the loss of word
and
decide to follow the corner of watt my heart say at least one time arh
and
the
corner
name
is
..
[*** *** ****] ..
just one time ..
kanna backstab felt this way ..
and backstabbing felt this way ..
stab in but not too deep cox we have been bestie
and i know at least not to hurt ya ..
too much ..
maybe .. i don wan ya to leave a scar behind ya if i could have been too harsh ..
or even my impact on ya is just like ..
i don know ..
watt i'm saying to ya .. not telling ya to let water ya ..
i don't know the feeling ..
i tot this day won't come ..
or should i retreat like how my lao poo says ..
i don't know ..
i really don't know ..
hey i knew someting ..
i lost my sense of direction in life
i don't know where to heed ..
cox it's a split section now ..
i have to choose real wisely ..
it depend on how i take it ..

and babe .. don ya tink ya public apology is too big for mii to accept ya .. ?? .. i cried and ya say it so loud uhhs .. ?? i saw it i did not heard it but i found ya are screaming inside .. :] .. fine ya won and i beware loo .. and today at stagmont there .. uhh-huh .. remember .. ?? .. watt ya did to my .. .. .. ?? .. i'll be back ya .. wear a thicker bra nowadays is safer .. :] ..



sometime .. felt so tiring .. :[ .. over everyting .. over jelousy .. impulsiveness .. or just simply those fcuking attitude i contain deep down .. i don't know .. i don't know why i love to say i don't know .. i don't know why i will hate the i-don't-know ppl if they reply mii i don't know when i ask them some question that they know .. sometime i close my eye and lie down on my bed .. i' m like having the sensation of emptiness in my life .. i don't know i'm lack of watt .. security .. ?? .. assurance .. ?? .. or maybe my door is close shut to belive onii myself and be confident all over .. a bit useless for all the hesitation i felt .. i wanna cry all the time .. i wanna be man .. macho and strong .. sometime i just can't .. i learnt that i have to admit sometime .. maybe i will felt guilty when write someting bad of ppl in my blog .. but i juswt wanna continue writing and telling ppl all bout her hj and bj atittude .. for watt sake .. ?? .. i don't know .. maybe just to vent out the fustrution toward her .. i saay be more striaght .. but i'm not by writing in my blog and declare i find her attitude so b*tchy .. i don't wanna hate her cox .. i don't know .. i just don feel like doing so .. i connot ask her amend .. i have no right .. i should just .. forget it .. maybe .. btw that crazy spammers in qing blog sucks lahx .. connot resist don scold her .. seh .. b*tch sia scold ppl whole family .. hahax .. joke also don so gl to say untill ppl like bastard .. ?? .. hya .. i'm so vulgar man .. my attitude really .. suck too .. maybe i also have no right to say anyting .. to anyone ..

shirley blog wrot .. to be love or loved .. hahax .. really disagree man .. i mean this does not suit her situation cause .. she have not been love by desmond .. maybe it's really because she is buang but .. don encourage her to wait .. not possible .. after a year of jio-ing .. no progress .. try a best jiu enough loo .. :] .. good luck ya ..

jia ming getting sucessful lerh .. :] .. not bad lahx .. jyjy loo .. but don end up like shirley jiu can lerh lahx .. :] .. good luck ..

so happy tmr meeting my dar dar .. we going sentosa and fanally it is a couple .. no lahx .. not unwelcome others ppl lahx [xue jing hor ] next time go out den cor ah ben to jio ya out we go together loo .. pai seh lahx .. :] .. ;] ..

take care ya ppl .. :] ..



hey .. i forgotten .. to type out my question and i called ya answer .. hahax .. pai seh .. i asking if our relationship is just unexpected accident .. ?? cox ya are always like saying dat kinda tingy whenever we have conflicts .. ya jus giving someone chance for the sake of giving .. ?? .. and i don't wan .. i mean it ..

well .. just few hour and i don really .. dislike ya liao .. cox yesterday tot of how close we are in the past .. at least dat help a bit .. lahx .. tink maybe too sensative liao cox ya are .. i don know .. or maybe if i saw ya flirt again .. i may just yucks ya like how i yucks her .. ?? ..

dat time jia ming and adam step at a ant de colony man .. hahax .. kanna attack by them .. i run when they shout .. got alot of ant .. run .. ~ .. jia ming still jumping at the colony .. i wonder have anybody ate up his brain accidentaly .. hahax .. but adam brain should be ate halfway cause .. he did run but when the ate chew on his fats .. he say .. "ouch .. the .. 蚂蚁咬我" .. i'm like =.= .. normal ppl reaction should be "piark" .. he like very scared of ate so let it bite .. my hand just swing as hard as i could and the ant became .. roti parta .. and i left a handprint on his leg .. den he like say until very bo song" oii beat den beat must beat so hard meh .. wah .. very pain leh .. " den i say .. kay loo sorry loo .. ehh i help ya leh if not the ant bite ppl will not let off unless it's dead .. not happy i go back catch one one den put back on that spot lahx .. hahax .. he gave mii the face of 'watt-attitude-man .. ?? .. '

i'm like hotline .. 1900 .. ppl stress come find mii .. yeaterday someone ask how to reply msg if she were to send her 'this-and-dat' .. i am like =.= i don know .. i'm not dat sucessful in my love-life too .. hahax .. he ask if a couple can tok all the crap wit each other .. i'm like .. maybe .. yes .. o .. no .. ?? .. i donno .. ask someone wit more experience .. but hu seh .. ?? .. ask her .. she more jialat den us .. ask her she ia too stupid to answer such a smart question .. ask him .. he will say .. i don't know .. i'm a gay .. i wife is amos .. potaso potato .. ask him .. he will just quack .. ask him he will absorb sunlight and ignore mii .. and .. even if yes .. how to .. ?? .. hahax .. i'm tinking over this question .. all the chocolate fault .. :] ..

i precious my thumbprint .. .. being sacarstic all over .. ~ .. hahax .. jkjk man .. :] ..



i'm back to hyper mode today .. :] .. bit piss over someting .. i really hate hongster ya see .. ?? .. hong watt .. lahx .. ?? .. i don wanna say to harsh cox i'm not jk lahx .. i don wanna hate cox .. i simply can't .. if ya really dislike my attitude .. say it out at my face .. and stop hinting mii o wattsoever .. let be more straightforward .. don go around wit doing all the small act lahx .. but not to the extend of hating [maybe] yet .. don come vying for everyting .. jus tell mii and i can retreat dat my style for knowing mii so long .. don take mii as a sub .. dat one nvr come find this one .. please lahx hor .. wan be sub .. i might as well be a loner .. today .. at bustop .. i went off first .. maybe ya just don't know my meaning .. but i don intend to show my unhappiness .. i just want ya to know ppl around are not reserve for ya to take them as pei-ers .. maybe ya just wan some attention .. don put mii in the spot for no reason or just sour grapes .. ?? ..

.. don be like a dog kay .. since dat time .. ya wit her .. i dl .. ya pang seh .. ya say ya did't know .. den nvm .. i dont dislike ppl for long ya see .. ?? .. den ppl cor mii partner them or watt shit .. i will always tink if i go will ya be alone .. den why must ya be like a dog and go when ppl summon .. forget it .. ya too are included who know mii most .. i'm always possessive .. either mine willingly or other and i won't even try to obtain ..

yarh .. dat time say ya .. i did't know it's so heavy .. i did't know ya plan someting so nice for mii .. but it's okay .. ya are still studying too .. very rich meh .. ?? .. don buy expensive ting lahx .. i really meant dat purely as a joke .. cox i donwan .. the atmosphere to always be so 'dry' and pai seh .. when we are close but we can't take joke .. so ridiculous ya .. ?? .. i enjoyed the time we spent togethere but i hate it when i'm like a stranger wit ya .. stranger as like we cannot speak watt is in our mind .. i connot laugh out of sudden .. but if it's is a unpredicted accident i have no comment regarding it .. anymore .. i don't wan someting dat not mine .. i mean it .. if ya are onii giving chances .. i really donwan .. i really .. i really donwan .. i tot .. i so heng like dat seh .. maybe i'm just too wrong .. or maybe ya also like joking .. i don't know ..

maybe i will regret to say everyting in this post .. but i know if it's not mine by force also not mine de ..

i have enough of being sub .. reserve ..

i'm really tired

no matter the outcome will be watt .. trust mii .. i will still love ya de .. :] ..



yo .. !! .. the sacarstic b*tch is back man .. miss ya ppl so much :] .. especially my dar .. :] ..


lolx .. so long nvr post liao seh .. hahax .. i came back sure happy de loo .. at there is like damn bored de lahx .. pui .. !! .. kanna forced go de hao mahx .. meet one stupid de aunty there push push push .. wahx felt like slapping her cheeks man .. nvm .. lahx .. at least must thx a bit i can pon school to go oversea play .. we stop at every city to have a meal loo .. wah .. the whole table as usual is always filled .. i fat 2kg and 300 g .. OMG .. hahax .. i got miss my dar .. a lot .. and my classmate .. hahax .. i come back immediately msg .. darling :] .. den cor my lao poo .. jing xiao jie .. she nvr pick up .. den cor shirley .. lolx .. she pick up the phone and say .. o.o glad ya back .. we lost lot of laughter without ya .. i'am so touch ya came back and called mii first .. hahax .. sort of guilty man .. she the third i contact leh .. forth is my bro lahx .. he kanna mii prank accidentally .. den send mii msg .. AEROPLANE~ .. i hate dat name lahx .. papaya ~ .. still witing for it lahx .. after dat jia ming cor .. l0lx .. i wanna write in caps dat MELISSA CONFESS TO JIA MING AND WANNA JIO HIM .. !! .. i cor him update mii watt happen .. lolx .. FATX AND BANANA FIGHT .. hahax .. wahx .. pity seh i nvr see .. if not i sure add lot of ting let em fight until non-stop de wah .. i more and more bad seh .. no lahx .. i will tell them don fight settle after school .. lolx .. :] .. my leg there got two red dot .. very itchy .. look so like love bite seh .. hee .. today science teacher bo bin lahx .. i put her lao hong say she malign mii .. hahax .. den act ke lian .. orh .. saw dat my dar cried on his blog .. kay lahx .. don too sad lahx .. over so long liao .. ~ .. kai qing is so jealous .. hahax .. don laugh later retribution .. next trip going .. to eat buffet .. :] .. ya btw .. happy chinese new year to ya mum lahx .. just now very bad seh .. nvr even address her .. hahax .. i very guai de must got manner mahx hor .. ?? .. hahax .. :] .. he say i becoming very tan liao .. how .. ?? .. whitening lotion .. ~ arh ~ .. today kanna .. pang seh by my lao poo and hiangs .. nvm .. lahx .. i knew it nvr expect too much from them lahx .. kay lahx .. like dat say they very bo seh de lahx .. hahax .. today in my room chatting very bo song suddenly sister chiong in say i very err-xin .. lolx .. i like leh .. den i like show the very sians face .. watt the matter man why interfere my life .. ?? .. hahax .. forget it .. today i very thrithy seh .. hahax .. i share wit levina during recess .. see .. ?? .. i mean it dat i'm on a diet lahx .. onii took a longer time .. :] ..

i'm glad dat my love story is better then all .. hey shirley stop criticise .. ppl kay .. ?? .. desmond is buang man .. hahax .. poor desmond always kanna drag down for no reason lahx .. hahax .. should say ya buang not him lahx .. btw .. ya cor mii relink .. without posting . linking . even tagbox .. lolx .. wait till one more month den link ya hahax .. no bargaining/act-ke lian/act cute arh .. hahax .. thankful thay i written a paragragh solo for ya .. :] .. lolx .. can imagine the pathetic face ya are giving when ya read lolx .. OMG .. i'm so wicked :] .. no lahx .. read liao don angry should forgive and forget watt .. ya should know mood swing leh .. especially today .. :] ..